Well.....well.....well.......Looks like we have lost Pram to the "fun ball" concept. Fine, I will have Felix and Sherman to play with then. This coming friday will be at the active court at street 22 again.........SGFX will be hosting something this coming saturday, i guess i have to go, no matter what. The celebration of the birthday of 3-4 people i guess.......including me. Nothing will stand in my way hopefully.........Angela is offline for 2 days, my guess is that she went to some auntie's house or getting her medicine from the capital Amman. Tomorrow will be another project studio for my product.....portable vacuum cleaner.....of Adidas.......Lecturer loved to say things looks obscene to them. I am taking my "calm down" pills everynight......yes....everynight....else...sleeping is a problem.....itch is a problem.......it spoils many things.......can be almost everything.....My wounds this time is concealed within the covered areas.......but pretty bad looking......the wound....the .......pain.....when perspiration comes when i almost got home.......when i shower myself.......i breath hard like a injured lone wolf.
You know what......I found the hidden reason behind the obvious question. Why did i not work hard. Why did i not start working and always slacking, always resting...........but i am still tired. The final answer is fear, it is uncertainty, it is lonliness, I am immune to the loneliness part.....but......i knew it is always there, i am used to it, but..........it is there. "At least i still exist" kind of life is not something new. But i want to thank my current classmates for not ill-treating me. It is a gift already. I got to rest now, there is a day to go tomorrow, also to ask the bloody CPF people about god damn school fees. To be able to foresee or not, it usually ends the same. That is my philosophy