Around these 2 weeks. I had dreams....and i hardly had any during my non-holiday sleeps well you know I dream every night during holiday. So......what i saw.......monsters.......female monsters......funny crap......and one which is worth to talk about. I picked up a cello and in the dream i somehow wish to carry on the fallen destiny of my father........the cello........what a talent.....what a player......yet......everything goes to waste just because of wrong decisions made. Well other than that. I remember Kurt used to play ball with me on saturday morning for the past 2 years. I have been playing Yahoo Basketball fantasy game on Kurt's league and I just topped it this week and this week, it is between me and kurt....head to head. Another night........another sleep.......another time of music-ing. Music kept me emotionally satisfied. "I'm on the battlefield......i will play this game......no matter what.. Victory or defeat.......is not what i wanna see......What i wanna see.....is the truth in this place.......And this place is in my heart. I want to know myself. Then at least one day i can say that......i understand my world.......the world where i lay in peace. That is my philosophy.