I rested for 2 weeks during the break and Kurt will be back around next week. Soon, there will be some games again. I should not stop training though. I watched 2 movies this week, "Warlords" and "I Am Legend". Well, i havent watch movie for quite some time actually so its time to relax. Again, I read the deeper meaning from both movies. Basically, Warlords is more of a reflection of the sufferings of the poor and soldiers. For "I Am Legend", it is more about the society. One of the information i read from the story is saying that the majority and the minority. Try to change? Change for the better? While some are just there to stop. Maybe stopping themselves from being saved. Again, everywhere you see is choices.......some call it the illusion.....only for those with power...Choices are everywhere....alot of times it cut down to 2.....dead or alive. That is my philosophy

Today i had 5 blocks, 1 on Kurt, 4 on 4 jc players. Playing some good defence, rebounding, defensing, stealing, blocking. Although offensively did not do much but it is alright. Making right decisions is still something i need to take note of. Kurt will be away for Christmas vacation in 1 week's time. Well....i know i will improve. Kurt always told me to make right decision....and i will be twice as good. He said about when I am 24, i will be best.......so continue improving now. Yea Yea.....That is my philosophy

Today 's game was good....best for past few months. The last few games, everyone shared the basketball. Ernest improved his inside game. Felix had an injured finger but still he is getting better . My outside game has proven itself. A different shooting stroke.....more athletism yet no fatigue. Training endurance does help. I will be anticipating next saturday's morning. This month, i spoke to 2 friends and helped them to be less depressed and less bored....till the time when they do not need me anymore. Thats the trend. It is a realistic fact. My skin got worse for 2 weeks till friday. Today was almost perfect. Thanks to the cream from National Skin Centre again. I have to take care of it now. Tomorrow will be doing some design studio work and work out . This means i need to sleep now. And yes.....my wallet....lost last tuesday......i have not replace the IC yet......will do it later this month. Around 3 weeks to term break, maybe will do around that time....My blanket was getting softer.........i dont know the reason why....maybe it is becaus my skin gets better. Skin smoother......blanket will felt to be smoother. That is my philosophy

Half way through the second semester, some projects still keep on going......while some.....coming.....Weeks fly faster as it go. Tomorrow is another friday. Saturday coming again. The things that kept me running is perseverance, endurance and rest. I have to work harder...yet be able to have sufficient rest. Time management...yes....maybe spend the time resting when i do not want to do anything, so that when i am done resting, i can engage the homeworks as soon as possible....efficiently. So.....i am going to rest for now. Rest now....for the next fighting. Today, I retrieved my glasses ....back into my bag.......so i am able to see during some lessons. I put it on when i was on the way home from school.....again i can see the big difference of glasses on and off. The world i saw with my glasses always gave me a very different feeling........First thing, i knew my eyes are not doing well....deteriorating. Secondly.....looking into the glasses is like travelling to a place of interest to me. I do not wear so often.....always felt interesting when they are being put on. I also stay more alert....or careful because i afraid that the glasses might drop. Mr Soon from my course told us once about try to do the same things in many ways. Going home by different routes everyday.........well today i tried going home with my glasses on. It does felt different. Making me felt less bored maybe. That is my philosophy

After almost 3 weeks into the second semester, still be able to catch up. About 7 weeks left for this term . Back for 3 weeks, still not be able to see Kurt because of all the rain on Saturday mornings. Hope that there will be better weather this coming saturday . Talking about basketball, Yi Jian Lian made his debut in the NBA season today, 9 points, 3 rebounds, 1 steal, 2 blocks and 6 fouls which got him out of the court. Although everyone did not think Yi will do well in the NBA, but i think it is hard to predict. Yao Ming was terrific today in the opening game. He had 25 points, 12 rebounds, 3 assists, 3 blocks and 1 steals. I have my improvement too but i am not sure how big it is. That is my philosophy

A work i did for colour study last semester, it is not very good but it is something what the lecturer want at least. After i came back this time , i really have to work well from the start for this semester. So i will of course do what i am supposed to do. This coming saturday i will be playing basketball with Kurt and Felix again , i hope i am better than before. I started training my body strength and i think it will help me in the future because good body is very essential for basketball. I tried hard to keep my skin "unharmed" this time , it has been a few days, i wonder if it could stay like this for the rest of the days. My holiday for the last 2 months have became history , but time will be flying. I will soon go to that place again. I owed her a hug still. This time when i returned to Singapore, i do not felt the same anymore. I have a feeling of.....not very sure where i am. The feeling started in Beijing and it carried on here. Maybe it is another change in me but i am not sure of the effect yet. But i am certained......that the change is undergoing now. That is my philosophy

I have finally be able to exercise in the Gym at b1 today. I will be doing so till i leave. I played basketball after that and I saw the best players i have ever seen so far. They are so perfect to me. LeBron of LeBrons, Bryant of Bryants. My mom left on Monday, now i am alone again but once i thought of her, i will be happier. She is my new friend. Zou Shen Wen. She is some kind of an intellectual, quiet, cool and cute. Most importantly, i found a sense of innocence in her. I have never had such an innocent and ............(something is wrong)......well i am back from 1st floor.........the lights went off......and i noticed the laptop 's electricity was off......and was running on battery. I went down to 1st floor's main hall to ask about it.......it will take 3 hours for the electricity to return. Well......all in darknes........All in darkness.....no more lights.......no more internet.....only the laptop still running on limited battery and that is the only light now...........only light in the dark................the songs in my list are still playing......the only melodies being played in the silence of the night. ......this post will only be posted after..everything is back to normal......Well....back to the girl......i really like her....inside out. She is so pure to me........but now...before everything happens, including posting this post.....i will have to stay in the dark.....i am in darkness.....That is my philosophy

My IQ

"............" That is how to express tonight's emotions. Absolutely nothing......No words.......just silence.........because i am "dead" tired........i dragged myself home....really......up the overhead brigde............into the subway stations..........back home............i washed my hand.....it was as dirty as if i left my hands in mud water............maybe better than that......but most importantly....i washed them..........just like how i reclaim my honour.....maybe not that serious too......but 100 percent accuracy is not something that you can see anytime. I know i missed 3 three pointers in a game at clutch......back in singapore two weeks ago.......Kurt was upset.....Tonight.......The game at the start and the end will be the most commentable ones... The players playing with me are adults.....they are good in their ways....The starting game is alright....I made 4 out of 7 for mid range shooting.......2 out of 3 for three point shooting....4 rebounds....3 steals.....2 assists........4 turnovers......Then during the middle...i perform to a " so so " standard....maybe 1 out of 2 .......till "kobe bryant" and the rest of his guys came......i played to a " so so " standard still.......but when i was traded to "kobe's " team , i dont really get to touch the ball ....I should say...i really "suck". No opportunity to perform......and the styles did not match............But.......when 2 guys from outside came in and joined the game.......and after adjustments.......i was with the 2 new guys......a fat but alright player...and a tall player who is alittle skinny but he is fine too.....they are friendlier...than "kobe" of couse.....4 on 4......2 guys...me and a "lebron james" joined our team.......This is when....i made 10 out of 10 from mid range............most are open......or the opponent is 1 metre away from me......but 1 tough shot.......it is almost a miracle.....once the ball is passed to me.......i shoot...and.....nicely DONE!........the ball hog " Kobe" is doing his old things again.....scolding........asking.........blaming all the mistakes that his teammate made.....including this.....right after my shot.....he would ask " whose man is this?" .......the person guarding might be dreaming in the dark because it was 7 pm.......he said he did not even know the person scoring was me. But a 10/10 for field goal is really something tough in these games.....these are not games which are slack....It is really intensive.....that is why my shoulders, waists, back, fingers, legs, feets and toes hurts alot.....hence i need to drag my body home. ......The feelings from during the game to after the game was.....speechless...there was nothing on my mind...........nothing........just shoot.....at will............I will improve.....I believe......That is my philosophy

Holiday now. Training time. Train the drawing of course. And maybe the physical strength. So i am flying to Beijing again spending 45 days there and hence, living alone for most of the time. 31st of August will be the day i fly. 14th of october, i will be back. So.....hang on. Hang on.......~ That is my philosophy

I injured my finger last week. Last Wednesday, i was playing with this bunch of Christians, and i accidentally stepped onto the girl(A) 's foot which has a wound. She fell and she gather all her might and hit me .....right across me ....her fist went.....she stood up and she hit again. i didnt do much but just standing there. After that his brother did a pass, i was intercepting but only my last 2 fingers tipped the ball which was flying at top speed and strength. A sound was heard and my last finger on my left hand was in "S" shape. I was in cold sweat. After X raying at Mount Alvernia, my finger had a dislocation and a piece of bone was being pulled out by the snapped ligament. the forefinger on the left hand suffered a sprain. Last Saturday i visited Mount Elizabeth for that doctor again and it seems fine and i am in a period of recovery. It will take months but i can still play basketball but not as intense as before. And I love my injuries. That is my philosophy

Kurt, Felix and I works best together on the court. Best coordination. I can also say that Luc, Wen Huan, Felix, Kurt and I can form a team. Luc is dominant inside. Tall and strong. With him in the team, we need to do less work as he is dominant inside. Wen Huan is a soft Power forward. He is tall and thin, with soft moves and he blocks well...in fact his trademark will be his blocks. Felix is just as tall as me but not as atheletic, he has excellent inside moves and shoots fine from mid-range with the best defense among us, he is a small forward. Kurt is the all time superstar among us. The best. He is short but he jumps higher than anyone. He is explosive and atheletic. He is jordan to us. He is our point guard, like jason kidd, he does everything. Assists, scores, rebounds, everything. I, lastly, the shooting guard. I shoots fine from outside but not very good. I drives but not so good too. i can be atheletic provided i am in good status that day. Stamina is my weakness. Kurt has always been my model to learn from. I too assists....rebounds and scores. It has been 1 year 8 months since i started playing basketball. With a heart of a rookie still, see what i can do.

Center: Luc, 30 plus years old, about 185cm, muscular, France

Power Forward: Wen Huan, 16 years old, about 183cm, slim, North eastern China

Small Forward: Felix, 18 years old, about 169cm, average, Hong kong, China

Shooting Guard: Zack, 16 years old, about 170cm, extremely slim, South eastern China

Point Guard: Kurt, around 24 to 26 years old about 164cm, muscular, California, USA

Another friday, friday, i was born, my rest day now, and i lost my watch. All on fridays. Tomorrow friday the 13th is a good day. This year's 23rd of november will be another friday. Benjamin Constatine looks like some nigga, funny. Theoritically, i have quite a lot of homeworks. Practically the "alot" will be nothing if i am motivated. I would like to sleep soon, i really promise to have a good sleep tonight. Sleep, rest, I need. Hopefully tomorrow, when i wake up, the birds will sing something to me. 3 years....i need to hang on for 3 years.....and there will be another challenge waiting for me....unknown challenge..... My eyes are closing.......Good night me. Good night moon. That is my philosophy.

That is Sabreena's portrait. I drew it......Sometimes, when you think of what u had and have now, you think it is your fate and it might continue to be this way. You controls your fate or your fate controls you? You can always decide what you want, but some people called the decision made "fate's decision". They are trying to say that no matter how you decide, that is still your fate. I do not want to say whether one controls another but i want to say that all we can do is to decide and do with the time given to us. That is my philosophy.

SRKD-Sincerity(word changed), Righteousness kindheartedness and Dignity. NYP work is like usual, troubles and nothing good it seems. Where i am in is a mess, i need to get out of it. My bed is never so comfortable for the first time in my life i think. To hold on to something seems like an easy task for the mouth, not that simple for action actually. I still have portraits for me to draw and so on...design course work.....This saturday i could play with Kurt again, he is back this week. He has been overseas for 2 weeks. I must practise on friday at least in order to boost my skill again and put on a great show. Shooting......driving.......dribbling.......rebounding......playmaking.........and defencing........all need to improve at once. And my stamina must stay in order to perform well of course......must remember to bring 3 litres of water. I need more motivation to perform in school work.......thats mostly about it. The 2 most important people to me in my design school are Candida(she always helps and friendly) and Maria(friendly and just great). Chris is good in NYP.......funky guy from Bishan Park secondary school but he will be graduating soon. I am getting tired, i should start drawing my 2 portraits. I should finish them fast. Thats what i am good at supposedly.....Sabreena is another great lady, just that i dont understand why she is always sleeping late. Obssessed with many things similar to mine. My brain....started to not working properly as minutes passed....should refresh myself after ending this. After tomorrow will be friday, free day. Another weekend comes. Yes.....another one....... my first friday was on 23rd of november............i stayed up late at that time too. I scratched myself hard these days. My skin is bad.....very bad..It is incredible........That is my philosophy

The drawing drawn a year ago became the drawing of today. Although not detailed but i still like it alot. At the time i was drawing it, the man on the page in my school notebook represented me. Today, it still represent me but it is slightly different......because....time has passed...........As i said.....life is a game which you could not save and load.........once past.....it is gone........once missed something.......the tide would continue to push you on.........the missed......will be forever lost........Maybe you can retrieve it some other time in the future....but at that point of time....when you lost it............it was lost. Lifting myself up might be one of the most important job to do right now.......motivation........ I am not doing things productively yet........since the end of O levels last year.......Holiday made me used to the feeling....of time flowing past me like a river returning back to the sea.......I have none of my fighting spirits left.......I have used to the days of resting. I think i am afraid of getting hurt.......yes.....hurt......Some people hope that everything was a dream.......some hope to be in a dream..........I am sleep walking.......or i am on my bed.......half asleep..........i thought again......falling deep into a sleep is not that scary...for now at least........hence it ease my fear..for death. That is my philosophy

Empressement...Righteousness...Kindheartedness...Dignity..............
Remember...that..zack...remember it till the end...............................................I fight for Empressement. I am truthful to anyone and anything and I will want to find out as much truths in the world in the time given to me. I fight for Righteousness. I am righteous, i am upright and i hate evil and untruthful living creatures. I fight for Kindheartedness. To forgive and to love is the greatest strength, even if the person is your enemy. Benevolence is for everyone even for those who destroys it.....but no mercy should be shown when one persistantly commiting the same crime. Receive your forgiveness in hell. I can fight....for Dignity....to die as well....but dying for honour on the way of my life for something is not honourable enough. To continue living and waiting for one day.....one day.....to reclaim my dignity. That is the most honourable thing to do.....also with great endurance......of ultimate humiliation. That is right. That is me. That is my philosophy

This is the first week of my term break. I have to get things started....a few projects and a few preparation work......and homework......added up to almost 10 i guess...I had quite a good time at the BB primers orientation camp last sunday...although i went for a day only. Tomorrow i will be meeting jeanie. Well, i do not know what we should do actually..but i think it will be just talking and eating. Yesterday, early in the morning.....I went to Mac Rhitchie. Into the jungle, we got into bushes first....filled with a bit of water. Then the tall bushes which we stepped on them when we walked......Bbqcow asked me repeatedly whether we should proceed. I always replied them the same answer. Go.....proceed. Then came swarms.....muddy water mostly....some is like quicksand.........some reached our knee........some reached out thigh when we returned. The land walk was not that fantastic too.....we chose a bad route. In fact there were no path.. We made them. some point it was just filled with fallen trees and branches. We were all scratched on our arms and hands....30 scratches......50 scratches.......hell to with those branches and that specifc plant or tree with thorns...When we were very close to the shrine.. the GPS.... was gone.. no more battery. Our founder ordered to retreat....yes....retreat............retreat...hm.....retreat huh.....So we got ourselves back....by the original road. Rain water washed us. We were close. We will find it next time. We will never retreat. Or at least I....The leader needs to be more "leader". That is my philosohy

PSS, i am the second biggest here. More and more people will get to know us....including spies. So far i have been to a SPI tour, and some joint exercise with SPI. Next week i will be going for a meeting hosted SPI....and i will be the only PSS representative there. I will be settling some problems with them. The SPI spooky walk was alright...we get to know another group of people called the SUPERNATURALS. They look more professional....they dressed like some SEAL teams....we are affiliating with all of them. Mt Faber was alright just i had a fall.....a roll to be specific. Last night was a joint investigation with SPI , to Fort Serapong but the gate there was found locked.....so we aborted the mission and we left the SPI and went for a mansion...we had some investigation there......i was being left at 1st floor alone....then 2nd floor....i recorded some sounds.....and another point to take note was......the feeling i felt at Old Changi Commando Barrack and the mansion.....was the same.....my right part of my body had the feeling of being pressed.......its the feeling of the psychic eye(the one where u put yout finger very close to between your eyes, and there will be a strong feeling). The feeling has transferred to the whole right side of my body....my right arm.....and especially my back....the back on the right side was feeling most uncomfortable.....The sound in the mansion was like someone knocking on metal stuff....or nailing something......repeatedly as soon as 2 of our friends left for other places while i was sitting at second floor corridor and founder was at 1st floor. Next week, my friends will be going to rediscover Shinto Shrine. While I will be going for SPI meeting....i dont think i can go for the investigation. Next week.....will not be an easy week.......but who said any week is going to be easy? That is my philosophy

I am from API(Asia Paranormal Investigator) but now i do not work for them directly. I have gain independence by forming a new group with a friend. Although this is a unofficial group but the API has agreed to let us be the affiliation group of theirs. We are their ally now....not their soldiers. Our "declaration of Independence" which is a word document has information about our vision and stuffs. The posts are given as follows :
PSS Core Committee

Weixue – HOD Web Design & Publicity, HOD Gadgets and Equipment
Zackwise - HOD Recce & Investigations, HOD Historical Research
Mikel – HOD 2 Recce and Investigations
sOrE-EyEz – HOD Media

Me...Zackwise....Head of Department of Recce and Investigations followed by Historical Research. Sounds good.....Leader of the Investigation team. I am now a Paranormal Seeker of Singapore(PSS). I need lots of rest from now on....ye....real rests....besides studying and investigating and basketballing......thats all i do for now...That is my philosophy

You know......I am under depression i guess.......finally.....should i say "again"?...This picture showed that i was on a bus actually on last friday....going to Harbour Front......to Sentosa.....this week might not go...actually........friends....problem.....i do not feel that i have friends.....people just talking..joking endlessly.....with no sense of seriousness......play a fool all the time.....While i was typing this......great to see Hawker again....my fren in my class back in Nan Chiau...a indonesian boy...cool...boy......Hawker.......hopefully he could join us on a trip next week...after he is back from Indonesia.. Kaiting said.....even natural born pessimist could change to be optimist...can i ?.....Paranoid......That is my philosophy

Ignore the date again....it was actually this friday......in the bunker of Seranpong...i slept from some hours from 8 to 11...with another friend- Wei Xue, then 2 other friends came. We did not advance in anything,......we came out soon....but the new friend.....around 38 years old man...provided us with lots of information on many other haunted places we can go in the future.....feel free to visit the link at the right " paranormal team"....the blog created for paranormal lovers.......every postings are about the places we been to...and the forum "http://paralovers.proboards101.com/", feel free to take a look too. Yesterday went to Choa Chu Kang cemetery.....but fell asleep as soon as i lied down........today just now go walk walk in the old cemetery near woodleigh.....thats all.....getting bored...hope that the new place next week will be better.....i think i am crazy man...i need to sleep.....That is my philosophy

Hard times....i should say....for the last 2-3 weeks.... The Designing courses.....the main point about them are not doing assignments...but redoing assignments. Other than that, i wish to go home every hour when i spend my time in Nanyang Polytechnic. I need to advance......i must produce better work...yes. Besides the Poly life....i always look forward to saturday morning because of the weekly basketball game with Kurt and friends. Although i have not been chosen by the team in NYP which is an obvious reason, I think i am happy enough to play with Kurt. Last friday i went for the first unofficial trip for API(Asia Paranormal Investigators). We went to Fort Seranpong in Sentosa....the fortress in the forest at the "satelite place" at the end of a lonely road in Sentosa. I visited there when i was in sec1 when the BB brought us there as a hike but we never go in any deeper...but this time i did. We have our investigations in a particular bunker...with a underground tunnel.....we spent time till 4 in the morning before we made our retreat.Although there were not much paranormal activities but the place will be revisited hopefully. Yesterday....was a disaster....or almost one....but we were lucky because we managed to solve our problems whenever we met them. We were supposed to find the Japanese Shinto Shrine deep in Macrhichie Reservoir but it was a failure.....we got through places where land slides happened not long ago. We forced our way through through mud, stones, roots and whatever that went in our way because if we did not....we know we have to force much all the way back ....8 kilometres back to the entrance at Lornie Road. But we got through all obstacles....some real shitty ones too.....and reached north of the jungle......from Lornie Road...11pm to outside Sin Ming Avenue at 4am. Before i went for the trip yesterday, i went for a dinner with Zhe Xuan, Yi Chao, Jia Hui, Kai Yang and Hui han to celebrate Hui han 's birthday. Then I embark for the thing. I missed the bus-stop because it was my first time to take Bus 52. It took me on an express way......i said shit man....the bus brought me to Ngee Ann Poly....around Clementi. Finally there was a hope to take bus back to Lornie Road but i gave a random message to Ben Toh who studied at NP. He was still in school and he came to meet me at the bus-stop. We took the same bus and i alighted at the bus-stop before Singapore Island Country Club and I saw Wei xue....all coincidences....Thursday night....full moon.....wet and nothing better. To get to the Shrine.... we must get into the dense jungles infested by plants, insects and some animals and all kinds of unknowns ahead so it was too dangerous to go for it....The bloody place have not been visited by any human beings since the last time which was 3 years ago by the Comittee members of SPI(Singapore Paranormal Investigators). It became an obstacle course.....march of 8 km....rather than anything else. It was a good experience or a lesson for us and for me....but i am sure that none of us wanted to do it again. I was calm always.....ye...s...calm.....nothing much to worry about......although there are some dangerous landmarks....like the cliffs.....Okay.....i have to rest......tomorrow morning, the game with Kurt...and hopefully i can finish most of the homework by tomorrow. I see more from the future. That is my philosophy

Despite me being sick, i made my saturday a great day. I made about 7 incredible shots. All about the same style....drive to the baseline and made a pull back jumper(shoot the ball while jumping backwards). In fact i jump backwards and leftwards when i on the left side....that was an insane shot...a crazy shot...a kobe shot according to Kurt.....I know i do not have any chance to get through the basketball trial on May 2nd but i will play to my full strength....but i want to reach to my best status as soon as possible...get use of the nyp hoop.....and do not fall sick again......and play with alertness..Felix said i have upgraded myself from "Luther Head" to " Jamal Crawford" already.....enough to play with friends....not enough for the trial on May the 2nd. Other than that...i need to get through assignments of my course....1 or 2 good lecturers of tutors......a "gay"...and an "attitude" madam....man.....May 2nd...10 days left only.......i hope for the impossible to happen. That is my philosophy

Now, a new life.....soon it will be bored......every day will end school at 6pm or earlier....with friday 2 hours of lessons...Every saturday morning is the weekly basketball practice with Kurt. There are quite a number of assignments for this week......this week...the first week. As I said....Poly is a big place....strangeland.....strangers everywhere....In my course....most people "seemed" to be....friendly....i said most......then you know...a few will always gave you a cold look.....i am cold..... I have fallen ill......thanks to the NYP Air-conditional system.....and my poor immune system...if you people wanted to tell me...."Dont blame anything except yourself". I am mentally and emotionally crazy so you people should better stay away from me......i might turn into some monster one day......or....am I already one?.........That is my philosophy

Do you believe you are still alive?what is alive?.........Those scientic explanations can prove that you are alive? Or actually those are just there to lie to us from the truth.we are born to this society. Our mind is what society give us. To believe what was taught and what was told which also go closely to our "standard body needs" like food and water. we believe everything we see...we smell...we touch ..is real. Do we need?.......Must we have?....... .....There are a few kinds of people to this kind of questions......First kind of people never thought about it in their life. Second kind of people thought in the materialistic way which their mind depended heavily on the dimension they are living. Third kind of people thought about it once or a few times but soon they grew tired and stop thinking until one day they might ask themselves again. The fourth kind are people who thought of these matters over and over again like "mad people". Some might discover some truths after some time but they will still carry on.......finding out more each day....each moment....finding out....through everday's experiences.....from every breath.....every moment of their " living time". A treasure....you want it?....do not want it?......you want it and you found it? Or you have not found it.........or you never found it?....That is my philosophy

That day....saturday...i was good during my first match among my friends...3 on 2...I made shots.....i made hook shots... I was shooting 60 percent for that match...woohoo...But the followed up one was bad....i was dribbling on the spot where this guy came to foul me by hitting me with his chest....outside 3 point line. Kurt came to stop because he saw the atmostphere was not right....i was surprised on what the player was trying to do. I elbowed him once.....then twice....Kurt came, told me he fouled already....i threw the ball down and walked away, then continued the game. I told Felix i had enough with those people at our court. I want to train alone. I want us to train alone. I want to change court. So, this coming saturday, i will see. Besides ball game...today is my first NYP orientation day....i went to the school.....then the lecture theatre. Besides loads of craps....all i knew was Design courses are busy ones which they called it..."u cannot sleep"....no time to even sleep?......i want to grow taller man!.....by sleeping and practising my 900 shots everyday....so they said there are hardly time for CCA....man!......no time no time? I will see.......i wanted to join a CCA actually. Polytechnic...man..is this hell?....i felt the heat already....I have not practised my ball today...because i am very tired after today's orientation....i hope tomorrow will be fine enough for me to practise.....but what i am concern is still the Poly Life.....v.s. my sleeping and basketball life....can they match?.......I am trying to find out.....what troublesome matters everywhere. That is my philosophy

Today...i started not to bother about hundreds of shots....i just practised and see....tomorrow will be the day to test out.....keep my energy for tomorrow. Tomorrow i will be back.....the old serious self on the court........If i do not get too nervous, i think i will be fine. So keep calm. I will rest now. Besides that, i will lock my warmth back....regain my coolness....and seriousness. I know a day will come again where it need to be freed from its prison again. That is my philosophy

Few hours ago i enrolled on the NYP website. Finally, done! This morning i continued with my shooting practice....and i feel real good....I felt good since the first day which was yesterday....i really felt my shooting already improved just in 2 days.....I shall continue everyday.....and hopefully i can get the standard i want....and just keep improving non-stop....after my normal "no-tricks involved" shots have reached an satisfying level. My shots will be first tested out this saturday...2 more days of practices till saturday..3600shots by then..and i will make sure i will perform well. The feeling of the ball is great! That is the meaning of practise makes perfect. That is my philosophy

Promise....How much does a promise worth?....That will depend on what a person promises. Nothing can buy a promise from someone.....if it can....i am telling you....it is no longer a promise....I promised Liying that i will finished the sketch of her face in a photo...although it has been really quite some time....but i promised....i will finished it....when i find back my feeling to draw.....it would not take much longer. I told Felix that i should practise shooting.....to make our team stronger.....because i am the only person who can afford to practise everyday.......although that is not a promise to him....it is promise to myself....900 shots everyday is my target....or actually compulsory....300shots from left, centre and right at close range....300 at mid-range...300 at long range....all these will be done inside 3 point line. I will master the 2 pointers......as long as i can knock down open shots.....we will have a better chance of winning.....my shots would be more accurate....which also would draw opponent to me....to loosen the pressure at the inside perimeter......Frankly saying....i have not practise shooting for a long time since i had friends coming to play with me........So, tomorrow morning, i will put the NYP evelope into the post box first...then my first 900 will start..........I hope i will become a pure shooter after sometime.......now then i knew....my road to a pure shooter have not yet begun. That is my philosophy

I drove again this morning....because the one guarding me is a girl again.....man!.......we really need to improve....in order to trash them for that....TTFT. I finished my energy at the 1st 2 matches.....I watched a full-court match....by Felix, Kurt and 3 army men....against the Bishan East CC boys who are the boys that played here almost everyday. Great match as i watch Kurt performed........but Kurt got angry ....and pushed a ITE guy away.....after Kurt dribbled the ball into the 3 point line......He gave a push suddenly while saying.....get the fuck off man...something like that.......well...i think it is cool.......my slogan "TTFT-Trash Them For That".......is also my goal.......in order to trash....practise first..That is my philosophy

Jeffrey was here again. Watching a bit of videos and watched us played basketball. The last match was a good one. 4 v.s. 3. Ernest, Felix and me against 3 girls and a tough guy. The girls are always killer shooters and close defender. Especially LiJia, a rough defender, hence i chose not to guard her today. We played hard.....and our score was 10-4 at first but the match dragged as long as 20 minutes more because we did not score and the girls and that guy scored consecutively....till the score was 10-10.....but we managed to grab a rebound at the most important moment....as i stood still at the centre of the three point line...with a girl in front close.......my mind had nothing then.....10-10.....one wrong move now can get us all killed......Just then, the 2 girls and that guy all went slightly to the left in the inside box to guard ernest and felix at the left side.....and my move was made.........drive in and scored the open lay-up........When i stood below the hoop, watching their 10th ball went in.....the feeling was....speechless......it was hard to believe that we let them caught up with 6 points.........When we got the pocession of the ball......in my hand before the offence.......1 point means means winning or losing.....when i layed the ball in.......as i watched it......i know....it was over.....i missed all my jump shots....as it was dark......abit more defenders.....rushing abit though.....but the main reason was i am not in good status today.........i scored only 2 points which was by driving in and layed it in.....my first was drive passed 3 defender and got it.....while the last was open and smooth.......Well.....i had my right ankle cramped.....but it would be alright..... I was fired up for a few times since that day.......now.....whenever i was provoked .....in some ways.....i will start playing with total strength......because i play ball nowadays....and not playing seriously.....so only when something hit me.....i will be on my top alertness.......So, people asked why am i still thinking about this match even though it was over. I said......they are girls......killer shooters and evil defender..........i treat everyone the same when we are in court.....should not defend loosely or play slacker just because there are girls in the match......for me....should be more serious when there are girls.....because they are playing against me....my opponents....my enemies..the end. That is my philosophy

Tomorrow morning i will go to Ngee Ann city for medical check up.Today i think i will complete a couple of forms and wait for the billing thing to be completed by my mother in china. Looks like Poly will be a troublesome place to stay and learn. Crappy crap..hem! hem!... Its humid and warm here....and my face is going through the worst time ever....i thought...........my skin is bad too...i need to sleep early today in order to wake up at 8 30 am tomorrow. I failed today because i could not wake up. i could not sleep last night....looks like it is going to rain. That is my philosophy

Oh...my gosh....Today...damn....although played with some alot better players.....but i hardly made shots or score for most of the games...just because the person guarding me is a girl. She guarded so close...sticking to me....I cant made shots....or even get passes from others.....and she blocked one of my 2 shots in a game......man!..............She kept chasing after me.....she defended like a mosquito......really STICK onto me.....felt really uneasy man.......Other than the craps that happened....Kurt told me that i should change my way of playing....Always dribble...Drive 1st, Pass 2nd then shooting from outside must always put at the last option....hence...i will take note of that....because...my top piorities are shoot or pass.....then dribble......lastly will be drive to the hoop....looks like i got the standard offensive way of basketball wrong huh......I played 6 hours today......and i had breakfast at 10am....I did not have my lunch......and my dinner just started just now...after i woke up from my nap. Man!.........Damn......i felt so shitty today.....I also felt that i am getting dumber..am i ?......*faint*.....I still felt sleepy....in fact i felt giddy.....Well, Jing Wen went for the trial shoot for the modelling this morning and it looked fine i think after messaging her.....I hope the scar on my face would fade away....That is my philosophy

Audrey Hepburn....a movie star at the end of the last century. My mom looks like her, as many said so....ye..a little.... Tomorrow will be another basketball match.....in fact i have not play any this week. Soon, i will receive my enrolment package from NYP and get it done. I heard that school starts on 16 of April so it is about a month more to go. It has been quite a period of time since i last finished school in Bishan park secondary. I hope the new environment will not be too bad. Life is going to get busier for lazy bugs...So Far....those people such as Zhe Xuan, Benjamin Gwee and Deborah has gone into YJC, BenToh, Pei yi gone to NP, some people such as Estee and Wei Sinn have gone to SP...Rachel Charles and Zi Yun has gone to RP.....all over the place i can say. Jeffrey is with me....Cheng yi....Jia Wen and Guo liang...they are the ones going to NYP....but not my course of course.....the enrolment for my course is about 40 students....quite small in population comparing to Jeffrey's Mechatronics which is about 600 students. I dont want others to call me freak again.............That is my philosophy

..Today....i spent most of the time sleeping......Only at the afternoon....i played with basketball with Felix and Ernest......felix might be the last in the few months.....He is going for National Service today, tuesday. Tonight i went to Douby gaut.......with Jeffrey again.......to play lan...at Princep Street.....and met Jojo......from TP......she is working there till 3:30 am.....while Jeffrey and I played for 3 hours....then returned to Bishan and have supper.....before returning home...Jojo will be returning home soon ..... I hope she gets home....and sleep.......thats all. After i was home....i watched a movie......about a spanish captain's life.....starring Viggo Mortenson(spelling might not be right) from Lord of The Rings.........should I said it was more of a tragedic life?........He did not stay with his beloved woman.......he spent his life killing....and taking on missions given by royal families........at last, he ended his life in the battle against the French.......yes.......every men dies.........hope that.......I hope that........ ...I could choose the way of my own death even though i wish to stay forever......That is my philosophy

......I played basketball for 6 days this week.......with Felix...Ernest.....Song Yuan........Kurt......Jeffrey.....going out .....a little.............my thigh hurts......so do my toes.....no nails.....or blue blacks..........tomorrow ...will be the last game with Felix...he is going to National Service. So far....since last month.....i knew more people online.....Clare...Cheryl..Si Min....Eunice....Yeelee.....etc. More people to talk to when i log on to msn. 1 night ago....Jojo from TP, asked me whether i knew anyone that wants to be a model....for her company......i recommended Jing Wen....because thats her dream.....as far as i know. She is going for a trial shoot i heard from Jojo....so i wish JingWen....could get what she want.......hopefully.....mmm..The songs i listened to when i was in beijing and nanjing has been played here......although its so warm.....i can still remember how cold it is when i first listen to those songs........That is my philosophy

Today, this movie made me cried. The battle of the island, Iwo Jima between United States and Empire of Japan. Suicides...killings.....deaths.....emotions....The letters of the died soldiers are left to bring their hope home......the hope of returning home......In the movie, a japanese officer told his men.....do what was right.............the commander of Iwo Jima told his men before he lead the last charge himself.......a day will come when they will weep and pray for your souls.......i will always be infront of you.........and when the commander was going to shoot himself while lying on the ground.....alone with the main character, he asked the soldier....is this still japan?........then shot himself..........the second starring character ......saigo....the ordinary soldier....survived.....the last moment was him lying at the beach on a stretcher with other wounded US marine soldiers.....before he left the cave.....he buried the letters of hope...into the cave....which later being discovered in 2005......shown in the movie...........hope......in letters.......letters of hope....That is my philosophy

This week.....i practised basketball everyday.....but.....something is wrong everyday.....Monday, the ball accidentally hit right into my face, hurting my nose.......Tuesday, while checking the ball, it hit my mouth, making my lips bleed.....Today, wednesday,......I knocked my head and chin with a uncle during a collision in a game, and i tasted blood once more........there are 2 wounds in my mouth......so much accidents huh.........i am waiting for the coming saturday morning where i can play with kurt, the american player........i hope i would not injured myself again.........the last game at the court was not a pleasant one.....a guy's disgusting laughters and jokes, with their fouls on my friend consecutively makes me burn finally, i start defending like crazy....stealing..........and passing.......Today, my double personalities.......showed only one me....the warm me has been burned.....while the cold me took over totally........the very cold me.......i feel it....when i was playing my last game today......i feel it when i ask the return of the ball tonight.......and i feel it....when the guy who borrowed the ball asked me a question......i turned around and did not answer........I continue walking away....and turned back the next second............My emotions had a froze bite........tonight........after i played..........basketball.....for 6 hours today.....................The sky on my head is dull........filling my mind with nothing......but more blanks......."nothingness"......."feelingless".......and of course.......the passing of time......That is my philosophy

This morning at 9, i checked my posting online from the JAE website. I was posted to my second choice-C83(Industrial Design). I am going to Nanyang Polytechnic, the School of Design.....Another matter is settled...Jeffrey the robot is going into NYP, school of Engineering while Cheng Yi was posted to NYP too...Other than that, i have not seen others going NYP yet. They are going NP(Bentoh&Peiyi), SP(Weisinn,Lengheng,Songwen), RP(Devan). So far those are all i knew. Soon, a mail will be delivered to my post for enrolment to NYP. Then start schooling again. *Yawn*....i want to get some rest first. That is my philosophy

Today, at 9:30 am, I woke up and took a shower. After few minutes past 10, i went down to play basketball with Kurt, the American friend and Felix, from Catholic Junior College. We had a full court match today.....5 against 5....Our 5 are Kurt(nickname Steve Nash/Jason Kidd), Felix(nickname Point Center), Ernest(AJC nickname LeBron James), an Anderson JC boy which i forgot his name and me(Zack). Our opponents today are really bad compared to us which is because they are not basketballer(they hardly or almost never practised)...and all of them younger than us...they are secondary school boys. We trashed them with scores like 50-20......Just because our opponents are much weaker, everyone of us had good statistics...all of us scored, passed, assisted, dribbled, rebounded and stole their ball.....Kurt is just like what he is....giving assists....and chances to us to perform and always the best actually. Felix is interested in becoming center but his size is making him a guard instead....but he is good in the paint...making many "hooks"..that is his special move...to score, he is an all-time serious player which started playing basketball late too. Ernest has shot the 3s...and went into the paint but actually Kurt and Felix are the only ones capable in scoring in the paint....but Ernest is alright with his lay ups which start scoring from the very begining. AJC player is another serious player which kept dribbling and defended the opponent once he stepped into our half court. He made shots and lay ups too....but his inside scoring and lay ups are still in need of improvement. About me, i scored nothing at the start, i start to score only in the middle. I did not defend at all because i know today's opponent is a total crap....why?.....because alot of times....only 1 opponent dribbled the ball to us......while the rest of his 4 teamates were standing still in the other half of the court. I made about 5 shots out of 8 or 9. I missed the first 2 three pointers and scored 1 three point finally after some time for me to warm up. The 3 point, the only 3 point today is very funny. The funny part was when i got back to the ground after i jumped and gave that shot, everyone including me staring at that ball flying in the air...all this happened in less than half a second...and i said out loud" MISS".....but the ball flew into the hoop at the second....soft and nice....and Kurt started laughing while telling me.....like "EH......zaCK!..HAHA".....Then i scored a couple of 2 pointers......then....the lay up which i did not expect to score....I am the player that just started to learn lay ups actually....and i lay up in the face of that opponent after making an adjustment to avoid his defence...and i ran back happily to my half court. The last one was nicely done, perhaps the best, my finest moment. I got a steal...a hard one...both the person got stolen and i were like slipping down.....but i got the ball after a few moves....and drives to their baseline quick, made a break at the baseline because a guy was defending....turn to my left....where the direction of the hoop is, one quick step back and gave a jump shot....and scored!.....from the baseline...and again i ran back to my half court ...where my 4 other players were......standing there.....from far, i saw Kurt, Ernest and Felix i think.....raising their arms high with the first finger pointing towards my direction....and i did the same.......When i returned, Kurt was telling me that the moves i did just now were NBA style..." Steals the ball, drives in and a jump shot" said Kurt. I felt great although I dragged myself for the rest of the practices in the half court because of fatigue. After practice.....Felix and I went to MacDonald's for lunch....and had some talks......then went to the basketball court to shoot around for a while. I went to his home and watched NBA replay together(Miami Heat.vs.Dallas Mavericks). I gone home later.....doing my same old thing again...Today looks more lively.......i am looking forward for next's weekend's practice. YeaH. That is my philosophy

So bloody bored u know.....It rained for 2 days!....i stayed at home...in front of my computer for 2 days too......Bloody hell...i am feeling sick.....of boredom....Actually this picture is very bored too....look at his expression....he gave that face....that as if he won with no effort at all......like " i am so bored....is this the best u all can give me?" So .....summary....bored......boredom kills. That is my philo....wait a minute...i have not finish yet...i heard that i will know which poly i will be posted to by 6th of March....good...good.....tomorrow will be better......basketball weekend comes.......That is my philosophy

Its been raining since i woke up at 12 noon today. Still raining and looks like i could not play basketball with leng heng again....hence need to choose another day. Today might be the most boring day in the boring days in this month and the next......i really did nothing at all....nothing....Sometimes.....it will be just good for me to sit there and chant or sleep on the bed till the next day when there is no rain....That is my philosophy

I will be going to watch another movie this week i guess. "Letters From IwoJima"(硫磺岛的家书).....i think i will be going with Jeffrey the robot. Today, i might be going to Ang Mo Kio's Kebun Baru Community Club to play basketball with Leng Heng....and also Ben Toh might be coming to do the last repair for my computer. The schedule seems to crash abit.....but soon i will know how it is going. .....*Beep*....Leng heng just messaged me....so maybe choose another day to play....because he has to work also.......okay....... Then alright....tomorrow there is a concert 《绣荷包〉.....my mom told me to ask around now.....even no one is interested in free tickets.....crap. You idiot! That is my philosophy

Yesterday, i watched "Ghost Rider"......just another action movie.....another phrase in any other superhero story.....One who have the courage to sell his soul has the power to change the power and i say ....that power comes with great responsibility. Its the third day of the chinese new year.....same old day for me....sitting...eating....sleeping....yep..right........need to do something.....but hardly find one....except i want to do drawing again......or make effort to find my missing camera....or play some basketball........or even go out boringly......for....almost nothing......Maybe....watch another movie today?....ahar?....ok.......If you think you are bored......then play with boredom....That is my philosophy

Hmm...in fact...i do not have much things to say because these days look the same for me.....just like the few previous posts....but today i hardly online.......i sat on the dining table most of the time and practised abit of my basketball on the empty court under my block. Things that are still the same are my mood.....same problems.......still listening to the same emo music.......Time might seem abit long for now......it might also be the longest month or period of time in the past years for me.......I am glad to see jing wen on her blog again.....replying my tag...felt better....but API lady Rem still .....have no sign of her....which is a mind illness for me now.....i am so thirsty to go for an API event......a little desperate.....The sky now is as dark as ink.....as slient as a deserted town.....its a new year.....for the lunar calendar.....but my feelings are still the same just like all the others days after I returned to Singapore......feeling....numb.....frozen.....feeling "feelingless"....All i can feel is again...like what i say before.................the flow of time.......my existence..........the feeling....of life.........Life...like a dream.....seems so real to me........That is my philosophy

Today, i spent time with Jeffrey.....around NTUC and Junction 8. We did somethings.....which we hardly did...Normal stuff such as buying things......I hope i have not lost contact with my API lady....she did not reply me for days on msn when she was online. My eczema skin problem got worse today..................hoping tomorrow will be better. You people should always be satisfied and glad you have healthy skin.... .....i am so itchy over here......Itch and scratch. Scratch and bleed......everyone.....is gone...jing wen....people.....and now the API lady rem......I did not see Jing wen online for at least one month.....Rem ignore me on msn for days already....i have not done anything yet......The time i have between now and the day i finally enter Polytechnic......seems to be so much......so free......everyone seems to be...gone..... ...................................................................................enjoy the flow of time.... ..................................................................That is my philosophy

Today.....slept till 12 plus........then after lunch .....slept again....till 5pm....Woke up....online....went for a piano concert...at 7 pm plus...12am reached home...then...again stone in front of the computer.......thats is it...tomorrow....jeffrey will come to my house...show him some of my drawings.....maybe...walk around at Junction8. Tomorrow i hope to do some drawing...not drawing since i return from beijing......except that skeleton hand.....which is 1 sketching only.....need to keep on going....else...the feeling in my hand will fade.......feeling sleepy....warm...msn left no one for me to talk again......again....That is my philosophy

Today, I did alot of staring.....doing nothing but staring nothing........into the air......even i was in the basketball court.....i just sat there staring blankly.......i do not know what i can do.....my API "guide"....do not reply me on msn...which i do not know why....some problems......now left with not much things to do......online.....basketball......doing nothing.....what else can i do?....drawing?....ye?......yes.......yes...bored....i started to feel bored of my music.....the same music all the time......... ......what can i do?......i know i do not have any friends to go out with.....if i go out.....it is equally boring........maybe ...i just need to tolerate for some time...and soon i will be busier......... ....m..........That is my philosophy