I know, its been months.......quite some time before i get this posted. Few days ago, I tried to force myself to write something but i guess i have to leave it till i am more motivated......maybe today......My industrial attachment ended somewhere a month ago and I had another holiday being a lazy bum staying at home until i flew back to Nanjing then travelled between Suzhou and Nanjing, my mom 's home and my father's........Though the schedule is a little tight, I guess i did have some great time there. Revisited the Xuan Wu Lake in Nanjing, paddling the boat around.... enjoyed some sceneries....Well, the main objective for this return is basically because of my grandmothers, both maternal and paternal , since they are dying anytime, better return to see them before they are gone. The situation of them is quite similar but I guess they no longer know what is happening around them. Faster than said, I am back to Singapore a week later than the rest of the cohort, and I quickly suit back to the schedules and works to be done. The new home in Nanjing is splendid, really great, but it does feel a little cold though. I have not find out why but i guess it is just not something i am used to or familiar with......including the city and her people. I always find myself back to zero, always living as an underdog or rookie, back to the start..........always have to be confused a little.......cultural shock....yes, indeed. I have found out that my GPA has gone even lower last semester, well, I have no path to go but to get myself a victory at the end of this final project, I am going to do something for opera, music, design, I guess i am more familiar with that, i would want to make it a final comeback, its really victory or death, by the order of me..........However i would not panic, I will weigh it lighter in my mind, if not, emotional downfall might happen. Time after time, i remind myself to be strong.....and stronger... all aspects......I tried and trying......Building a castle of you own, building your stronghold.......like I said.........build your own great wall..........of everlasting length. That is my philosophy