I could not sleep again......i stayed in my dark room all day and night...alone in silence.......my friend from australia is right....i am living in fear everyday....fear of death....and unpleasant things.....the music in my computer goes on non-stop for five days already..........i rest the whole day.......i wondered if the friends would be more caring to me and have more time to stay with me if i am dead......i would choose not to be born if it is better not to be living.....maybe i should go back....to the world that does not exist......
That is my philosophy