It will be months or years before I could return on a flight to see this cat, not really my friend, it is not familiar with me, bloody turkish cat, white with 2 black spots on its head....Well, talking about my final presentation, I did it. It was a pass that I saw on the result email that night. Basically it is done. Now left the graduation show for 2010, and our preparation of course, quite troublesome i felt, i guess i got some tasks to do for my portfolio. But again, My life in this Polytechnic is almost done, yes indeed, I got to solve my problems on repeating that 3d modelling module which would take another 4 months more, well, school fee is the issue here. Not going to pay thousands for a module which I never get informed for my absence. Well, the first part is my responsibility but by right, the part timer should be the second part.......Besides that, I got to be a runner for my mom's tax paying thing, really....damned......I mean, it is something for you to be worried of.......and I never like that, I know there would be more, but I hate problems that deal with tax......and waiting....while rushing for time. The school's side is more under control, at least would not get anyone into jail. The final moments of my final project came so fast and so.....done. Sometimes you are waiting for the end to happen so that your long waited happiness might come, even when it is temporary.......but it fly by, your face went blank, just like a plane across your face, you never saw it coming, then you got ready as the shadow came pressing towards you, and again, in a split moment, face to face, next slide, next scene, it is gone...........leaving you staring and moving on. The lunar new year holidays were filled with tons of food.....and plenty of rests at home........Same for me, beside the protein and calcium.....I found more R&Bs, old.....smoothies.....and new cheesy cakes.......Well, similarly from my counsilor, she asked, "What 's next?". It would be easier to solve your current issues, but you comes to the "what's next" question, you stumbled, and you waited, for you own mind to find a reply or answer, most of the time, you could not, all would be predictions and they would not be proven till that plane came flying down again. When it comes, you would not need to wait, when it came, it will be over..........Just like those lines...."It's all over". I am not the keeper of time........I am just a watchman..........."What's next?" That is my philosophy

Have you ever heard of...the story of Anakin Skywalker?.....from Star Wars of course. In fact....little ziwei wants to be strong......but he could not. He has his limitations, in fact very limited in certain ways..........Is it worth it? to forfeit years or decades, for something that again, might not be what he wants............Little ziwei is weak, he can never be strong in certain ways......He is condemned......Even he talked about the great wall that everyone should be building.....all great walls will fall.....eventually....and till the day that it could not be rebuild again, it will be left that way......never rise again.....fallen......Maybe it could be better for little ziwei to lead a happier life as an ordinary arts-related worker, museum career perhaps.....but will that come to the same question.......are you really that talented? and you are unproven? Isn't it? You always talked about the talents you have......Indeed, an easier life and more ordinary one could give you more stable days............but again, you know it......every eyes from them, every breath they took........you smell it in the air, you feel it......you can see it.........they dispise you......they could not wait to get rid of you.......Yes....And you became angry....Little ziwei is very angry....indeed.....but due to the born limitations, there is only one way out....One way out. Achieve it, and you will be fearless...you can crush them under your feet........conquer, overwhelm, they will not able to look at you with their eyes anyone, because none will be able to see...........Little ziwei is angry, and the only way .....is the same answer again......that way.....through years ......it will be fulfilled. But all .....will be for one single causely, to ease a frightened heart.........a heart of an weakling once. Deep inside, a young boy.... will turn into......the black knight....the dark prince......The eyes which once contain the world......shall filled with burning flames from hatred and anger, poisoned by his fear. Then, it will not be the world you will see from his eyes.....it will be hatred for the world instead... The One hero is always a thought away from being the the One villan. All you need to take......is a bit of impulse, and it will be done...........maybe a bit more determination, it will do. The world might not really burn .......but the villan would definitely be fighting against his own heart, and the things he once loved........It has always been a heart battle and it is a hard battle. One could answer or dispose his destiny.............but once he believes that the experience now is a pathway to his future, and he is different from the rest since he will become what others could never become............if he starts believing in it............, he might have no way back............it is a long way there.........but there will be no way back............He will find his destiny, he will be his destiny. That is my philosophy