Well, it has past 12 mid night...today supposedly....my journey back to singapore.....msn messenger has left me with no one for me to chat with....no one that is close enough......and I just came to my blog here to talk to myself on the tagboard....looks interesting to me...but might look crazy to all of you or at least most of you. You know, in my life, my current life, the most common words i heard from people were "crazy", "mad", "siao" and lastly "freak". Nowadays, memories from the past came running again and again in my mind....non-stop.....all about me from a kid.....from 1 year-old knowing how to draw by myself.....asking philosophical questions at 2-3 years old.....then 5 i left for singapore from china......primary schooling was in Nan Chiau High School(primary)......how the students and teachers there bullied me....distrust.....prejudice.
After 4 years in nan chiau...it went to seng kang and i was transferred to Stamford Primary in Bugis.....p5 and 6 there was better although i brought my hatred...my fear and my anguish along. For secondary school...i have chosen Bishan Park......after 4 years here.......all i know....something that i cannot believe nor i will expect nor even hope in the past...which is people do care for me......my Boys' Brigade life will be one regret for me to stay as serjeant......but the memories in BB......is one of the clearest memories i have now......and i always reflect from it.......Now, after O levels examination......i went to beijing again to learn drawing..as i know drawing will be my most important skill later....my talent in drawing...some music....histories, paranormal activities and my own philosophy.....Now again.....sorry for repeating.....i am leaving for singapore to receive my results for O levels......when i am back....what awaits me is my basketball....Asia Paranormal Investigators for my so called ghost hunting......drawing........a new school....and a new route in my life.........A little boy....who was cheerful....warm hearted...and kind has become a icy cold person.....filled with anger and bad memories..........but soon...he knows that even to keep cool outside.....his emotions can never be locked.........Now...freedom of my mind and feelings come.......This time...when i re-enter singapore.....i know i am a changed person....again...this is the 6th time i guess.....first was the primary sch change....turning into a coward....then the post- nan chiau change.....turning into a boy filled with grudge.....followed by the post Stamford change....to feel better but not fully recovered yet.......the secondary 3 change is to let my inner self out....filled with daring thoughts and words.....but was too heated.......sec 4 change cooled me down somehow........and finally......on 4th of febuary........the return of zackwise........the change of zackwise.....a new zackwise.....welcoming this spring....2007.......Only till today....now...this very moment...i start to love this blog the most....not to show to others but to let myself...show it to myself...the evidence of life.....summarising and reflecting.....and lastly....i hope anyone that dislike my old self....anyone ..please...look at me with a fresh impression of me...the new me.......has arrived....Thank you.....That is my philosophy