Its been raining since i woke up at 12 noon today. Still raining and looks like i could not play basketball with leng heng again....hence need to choose another day. Today might be the most boring day in the boring days in this month and the next......i really did nothing at all....nothing....Sometimes.....it will be just good for me to sit there and chant or sleep on the bed till the next day when there is no rain....That is my philosophy

I will be going to watch another movie this week i guess. "Letters From IwoJima"(硫磺岛的家书).....i think i will be going with Jeffrey the robot. Today, i might be going to Ang Mo Kio's Kebun Baru Community Club to play basketball with Leng Heng....and also Ben Toh might be coming to do the last repair for my computer. The schedule seems to crash abit.....but soon i will know how it is going. .....*Beep*....Leng heng just messaged me....so maybe choose another day to play....because he has to work also.......okay....... Then alright....tomorrow there is a concert 《绣荷包〉.....my mom told me to ask around now.....even no one is interested in free tickets.....crap. You idiot! That is my philosophy

Yesterday, i watched "Ghost Rider"......just another action movie.....another phrase in any other superhero story.....One who have the courage to sell his soul has the power to change the power and i say ....that power comes with great responsibility. Its the third day of the chinese new year.....same old day for me....sitting...eating....sleeping....yep..right........need to do something.....but hardly find one....except i want to do drawing again......or make effort to find my missing camera....or play some basketball........or even go out boringly......for....almost nothing......Maybe....watch another movie today?....ahar?....ok.......If you think you are bored......then play with boredom....That is my philosophy

Hmm...in fact...i do not have much things to say because these days look the same for me.....just like the few previous posts....but today i hardly online.......i sat on the dining table most of the time and practised abit of my basketball on the empty court under my block. Things that are still the same are my mood.....same problems.......still listening to the same emo music.......Time might seem abit long for now......it might also be the longest month or period of time in the past years for me.......I am glad to see jing wen on her blog again.....replying my tag...felt better....but API lady Rem still .....have no sign of her....which is a mind illness for me now.....i am so thirsty to go for an API event......a little desperate.....The sky now is as dark as ink.....as slient as a deserted town.....its a new year.....for the lunar calendar.....but my feelings are still the same just like all the others days after I returned to Singapore......feeling....numb.....frozen.....feeling "feelingless"....All i can feel is again...like what i say before.................the flow of time.......my existence..........the feeling....of life.........Life...like a dream.....seems so real to me........That is my philosophy

Today, i spent time with Jeffrey.....around NTUC and Junction 8. We did somethings.....which we hardly did...Normal stuff such as buying things......I hope i have not lost contact with my API lady....she did not reply me for days on msn when she was online. My eczema skin problem got worse today..................hoping tomorrow will be better. You people should always be satisfied and glad you have healthy skin.... .....i am so itchy over here......Itch and scratch. Scratch and bleed......everyone.....is gone...jing wen....people.....and now the API lady rem......I did not see Jing wen online for at least one month.....Rem ignore me on msn for days already....i have not done anything yet......The time i have between now and the day i finally enter Polytechnic......seems to be so much......so free......everyone seems to be...gone..... ...................................................................................enjoy the flow of time.... ..................................................................That is my philosophy

Today.....slept till 12 plus........then after lunch .....slept again....till 5pm....Woke up....online....went for a piano concert...at 7 pm plus...12am reached home...then...again stone in front of the computer.......thats is it...tomorrow....jeffrey will come to my house...show him some of my drawings.....maybe...walk around at Junction8. Tomorrow i hope to do some drawing...not drawing since i return from beijing......except that skeleton hand.....which is 1 sketching only.....need to keep on going....else...the feeling in my hand will fade.......feeling sleepy....warm...msn left no one for me to talk again......again....That is my philosophy

Today, I did alot of staring.....doing nothing but staring nothing........into the air......even i was in the basketball court.....i just sat there staring blankly.......i do not know what i can do.....my API "guide"....do not reply me on msn...which i do not know why....some problems......now left with not much things to do......online.....basketball......doing nothing.....what else can i do?....drawing?....ye?......yes.......yes...bored....i started to feel bored of my music.....the same music all the time......... ......what can i do?......i know i do not have any friends to go out with.....if i go out.....it is equally boring........maybe ...i just need to tolerate for some time...and soon i will be busier......... ....m..........That is my philosophy

Ermm.............................................. ...............................bored....yes....very....msn....bored.... I have submitted my choices.....for my bloody polytechnics huh?.......HA!...yes....CRAPS!........BULLSHITS....... .....u know.....i have been listening to the same song for the past few hours......"As long as you love me"....."I want it that way"....."Show me the meaning of being lonely"......and "I lay my love on you".. I boringly listening to these boring songs........Confusius is very right.....any problems that comes to u......is caused by yourself.....i am so bored....it is my FAULT!..........I am the one that i should be blaming.......craps.... ....... ...... ............ ........I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW.....I AM A FREAK!.....I AM MAD.....INSANE...CRAZY FELLOW...........IRRITANT.....that BUGGING people all the time......I SHOULD BLOODY well shut the hell UP.......Its NOBODY'S FAULT.....mY FAULT....WHATEVER THINGS u people do not like about me...throw them out .....as much as you can....yes.......that is right...... ....... .....i ...just like this statue...standing............and standing........ .....i should cut the crap right?....RIGHT?.......SO U PEOPLE BETTER IGNORE ME.......because the reason is simple.....isnt it?.....That is my philosophy

I received my O level result on friday.....L1R5=26......L1R4=18(minus bonus point).........the cut off point are like 17,18 and 19 for those courses that i picked.....They are all design course.......i am a bit troubled.......but soon i will register......tomorrow....monday.........The place i hope i am going is Nanyang Polytechnic....hope.....always human's last light.......only in the heart of people...I saw students getting good and bad results......some retaking...some felt disappointed...I feel nothing for myself......hey Joanna........JC girl!.........Pearlyn.........you are alright........and for many.....they reached their destination of secondary education.......I continue living as Zackwise...the road ahead........seems.....like a labybrith......we....went into this labybrith.....and make new friends.....after some time......we were dispersed.....and each one of us met new people and problems.....sometimes....in this labybrith...we might met the same people again.....some continued to walk in groups........a few might chose to search alone....the things they saw...the humans they met......will be passerby only....see and go.......This labybrith is the world....That is my philosophy

Well, it has past 12 mid night...today supposedly....my journey back to singapore.....msn messenger has left me with no one for me to chat with....no one that is close enough......and I just came to my blog here to talk to myself on the tagboard....looks interesting to me...but might look crazy to all of you or at least most of you. You know, in my life, my current life, the most common words i heard from people were "crazy", "mad", "siao" and lastly "freak". Nowadays, memories from the past came running again and again in my mind....non-stop.....all about me from a kid.....from 1 year-old knowing how to draw by myself.....asking philosophical questions at 2-3 years old.....then 5 i left for singapore from china......primary schooling was in Nan Chiau High School(primary)......how the students and teachers there bullied me....distrust.....prejudice.
After 4 years in nan chiau...it went to seng kang and i was transferred to Stamford Primary in Bugis.....p5 and 6 there was better although i brought my hatred...my fear and my anguish along. For secondary school...i have chosen Bishan Park......after 4 years here.......all i know....something that i cannot believe nor i will expect nor even hope in the past...which is people do care for me......my Boys' Brigade life will be one regret for me to stay as serjeant......but the memories in BB......is one of the clearest memories i have now......and i always reflect from it.......Now, after O levels examination......i went to beijing again to learn drawing..as i know drawing will be my most important skill later....my talent in drawing...some music....histories, paranormal activities and my own philosophy.....Now again.....sorry for repeating.....i am leaving for singapore to receive my results for O levels......when i am back....what awaits me is my basketball....Asia Paranormal Investigators for my so called ghost hunting......drawing........a new school....and a new route in my life.........A little boy....who was cheerful....warm hearted...and kind has become a icy cold person.....filled with anger and bad memories..........but soon...he knows that even to keep cool outside.....his emotions can never be locked.........Now...freedom of my mind and feelings come.......This time...when i re-enter singapore.....i know i am a changed person....again...this is the 6th time i guess.....first was the primary sch change....turning into a coward....then the post- nan chiau change.....turning into a boy filled with grudge.....followed by the post Stamford change....to feel better but not fully recovered yet.......the secondary 3 change is to let my inner self out....filled with daring thoughts and words.....but was too heated.......sec 4 change cooled me down somehow........and finally......on 4th of febuary........the return of zackwise........the change of zackwise.....a new zackwise.....welcoming this spring....2007.......Only till today....now...this very moment...i start to love this blog the most....not to show to others but to let myself...show it to myself...the evidence of life.....summarising and reflecting.....and lastly....i hope anyone that dislike my old self....anyone ..please...look at me with a fresh impression of me...the new me.......has arrived....Thank you.....That is my philosophy