Tomorrow, I will fly for Nanjing. My flight will stop at Xiamen before Nanjing. Tonight had a ball game with Sunny and Kurt. Had 2 photos taken with Kurt because he said he is not sure whether he will still be here when I get back in April. Vacation means i can rest. I do not know whether there will be comfort for me in China. Weather is still cold...around -1 in Nanjing still. Hope for comfort.....hope for more rest. Away from illness....especially stomach problem.....itch.....etc. 12th of April. Returning date. Hope it is right. Hua hua has been staying in the hospital for a long time.....it is a month already. More than a week , she has not online. I do not know when or will I be able to go to Beijing to see her. Is Pneumonia the real illness troubling her?.........seems abit serious. Another semester break.....I can still remember clearly my last trip to China....my first polytechnic semester break.......it did not seem that far away.....polytechnic life is fast. I left secondary school for a year already. That is the speed. I have not felt that yet. Kurt has stayed in Singapore for 2 years already and he will be leaving soon this year. First time i saw Felix , he was wearing CJC uniform. Now he is going to finish his NS. Benjamin Toh felt it too. Lightning speed. ..........Isn't it. The number of the year just kept on adding........2008....whats next?....2009?.....Do you think it will be it when you realise again the next time? Time slows down when you stare at nothing. Time quickens when you start doing something.............The ability to effectively remembering things in life gave me alot of materials to reflect. Time to leave, .....to sleep. Time for tomorrow. That is my philosophy

Tonight is Chinese New Year eve. Today , the semester ended actually.....except for a photoshop project left next week. Many things have happened last month. .....Hua hua ......."flower" is my best friend online.......from a forum in china. The crappy stuffs from that forum is quite entertaining. The story between us is quite complicated......but i should say that ....2008.....16 th of january.....23 hours......i replied her thread....and that sparked the whole story. ........She live in Beijing too but unfortunately this vacation i am visiting Nanjing instead. Will be learning drawing and training some basketball there.....Hua hua might be still in hospital now......She is suffering from Pneumonia......she kept coughing .....thats about it. I know she will be disappointed but i think i might have one or two chances to visit Beijing's home with my mom. I will try to meet her.....I am a little drunk tonight but i felt great. Stress-free is the keyword........................I hope she will be back soon......I have not talked to her for some time already. .......Snow in southern china.....hope that it will be better soon.....That is my philosophy

At around 6 pm, dark clouds , wind, lightning and thunder poured around me. I decided to take a nap. This is the best symphony by the thunderstorm since a very long time ago. Lightning's flash and thunder's roar are beautiful if you enjoy them in safety. Thunder's roar went from loud to soft.....so did the lightning....some are extremely long....some are short. It is like a story of something. The life of a living or non-living thing. Ups and downs............Highs....and lows........Even when it reached to the bottom......it might bounce back again and reach its height.......The rain....is like the tempo......or the beat...following through. The dark atmosphere is the stage curtain ........which signalled the begining......and will signal......the end. That is my philosophy

Kurt back today. Played 5 hours of ball game starting from 9 am. Fandi came with his friends. Games was played hard today. Had 1 block on Felix, 1 on Ernest and another block on someone i could not remember. The bald boys are more athletic but not very skilled. Open house was held this week. The job of being a tour guide is quite stupid. I took the afternoon shift and the whole afternoon i had lead 1 student only while others lead 20. Made friend with the student i lead. I had a sleep just now , woke up an hour ago. Tomorrow, i have to do some work for project in the afternoon. Planning to wake up early in the morning tomorrow. Felt a little awkward now....sleeping again? I hope to do some talking before i sleep. Talk....to whom should i ? Myself...Reflect by speaking to myself. That is my philosophy

Today, 2008. I spent the last few hours of 2007 playing basketball with a few friends. School will start tomorrow. A peaceful heart......is needed......to tackle problems....I had great time playing ball games these 2 days....the movies are alright also.......the best ......is the feeling within the greetings across people......for a good year....a great year. I had a plea..sant.....chat...with a friend. That is the first conversation i had in 2008. Long conversation......pleasant?....certainly.....I mean real pleasant. Every conversation is an experience.....The chat just now was another feeling.....which i almost never had. Unfortunately.....i know that.....i would not get the exact feeling again next time. Even if i talk to the same person....the feeling might be similar.....but it will never be the same.......not the same.....like the very first one.....gloomy?......me. I am showing the true me and gloomy is part of it. Know me deep enough....and get to see other parts. That is my philosophy

I rested for 2 weeks during the break and Kurt will be back around next week. Soon, there will be some games again. I should not stop training though. I watched 2 movies this week, "Warlords" and "I Am Legend". Well, i havent watch movie for quite some time actually so its time to relax. Again, I read the deeper meaning from both movies. Basically, Warlords is more of a reflection of the sufferings of the poor and soldiers. For "I Am Legend", it is more about the society. One of the information i read from the story is saying that the majority and the minority. Try to change? Change for the better? While some are just there to stop. Maybe stopping themselves from being saved. Again, everywhere you see is choices.......some call it the illusion.....only for those with power...Choices are everywhere....alot of times it cut down to 2.....dead or alive. That is my philosophy

Today i had 5 blocks, 1 on Kurt, 4 on 4 jc players. Playing some good defence, rebounding, defensing, stealing, blocking. Although offensively did not do much but it is alright. Making right decisions is still something i need to take note of. Kurt will be away for Christmas vacation in 1 week's time. Well....i know i will improve. Kurt always told me to make right decision....and i will be twice as good. He said about when I am 24, i will be best.......so continue improving now. Yea Yea.....That is my philosophy

Today 's game was good....best for past few months. The last few games, everyone shared the basketball. Ernest improved his inside game. Felix had an injured finger but still he is getting better . My outside game has proven itself. A different shooting stroke.....more athletism yet no fatigue. Training endurance does help. I will be anticipating next saturday's morning. This month, i spoke to 2 friends and helped them to be less depressed and less bored....till the time when they do not need me anymore. Thats the trend. It is a realistic fact. My skin got worse for 2 weeks till friday. Today was almost perfect. Thanks to the cream from National Skin Centre again. I have to take care of it now. Tomorrow will be doing some design studio work and work out . This means i need to sleep now. And yes.....my wallet....lost last tuesday......i have not replace the IC yet......will do it later this month. Around 3 weeks to term break, maybe will do around that time....My blanket was getting softer.........i dont know the reason why....maybe it is becaus my skin gets better. Skin smoother......blanket will felt to be smoother. That is my philosophy

Half way through the second semester, some projects still keep on going......while some.....coming.....Weeks fly faster as it go. Tomorrow is another friday. Saturday coming again. The things that kept me running is perseverance, endurance and rest. I have to work harder...yet be able to have sufficient rest. Time management...yes....maybe spend the time resting when i do not want to do anything, so that when i am done resting, i can engage the homeworks as soon as possible....efficiently. So.....i am going to rest for now. Rest now....for the next fighting. Today, I retrieved my glasses ....back into my bag.......so i am able to see during some lessons. I put it on when i was on the way home from school.....again i can see the big difference of glasses on and off. The world i saw with my glasses always gave me a very different feeling........First thing, i knew my eyes are not doing well....deteriorating. Secondly.....looking into the glasses is like travelling to a place of interest to me. I do not wear so often.....always felt interesting when they are being put on. I also stay more alert....or careful because i afraid that the glasses might drop. Mr Soon from my course told us once about try to do the same things in many ways. Going home by different routes everyday.........well today i tried going home with my glasses on. It does felt different. Making me felt less bored maybe. That is my philosophy

After almost 3 weeks into the second semester, still be able to catch up. About 7 weeks left for this term . Back for 3 weeks, still not be able to see Kurt because of all the rain on Saturday mornings. Hope that there will be better weather this coming saturday . Talking about basketball, Yi Jian Lian made his debut in the NBA season today, 9 points, 3 rebounds, 1 steal, 2 blocks and 6 fouls which got him out of the court. Although everyone did not think Yi will do well in the NBA, but i think it is hard to predict. Yao Ming was terrific today in the opening game. He had 25 points, 12 rebounds, 3 assists, 3 blocks and 1 steals. I have my improvement too but i am not sure how big it is. That is my philosophy

A work i did for colour study last semester, it is not very good but it is something what the lecturer want at least. After i came back this time , i really have to work well from the start for this semester. So i will of course do what i am supposed to do. This coming saturday i will be playing basketball with Kurt and Felix again , i hope i am better than before. I started training my body strength and i think it will help me in the future because good body is very essential for basketball. I tried hard to keep my skin "unharmed" this time , it has been a few days, i wonder if it could stay like this for the rest of the days. My holiday for the last 2 months have became history , but time will be flying. I will soon go to that place again. I owed her a hug still. This time when i returned to Singapore, i do not felt the same anymore. I have a feeling of.....not very sure where i am. The feeling started in Beijing and it carried on here. Maybe it is another change in me but i am not sure of the effect yet. But i am certained......that the change is undergoing now. That is my philosophy

I have finally be able to exercise in the Gym at b1 today. I will be doing so till i leave. I played basketball after that and I saw the best players i have ever seen so far. They are so perfect to me. LeBron of LeBrons, Bryant of Bryants. My mom left on Monday, now i am alone again but once i thought of her, i will be happier. She is my new friend. Zou Shen Wen. She is some kind of an intellectual, quiet, cool and cute. Most importantly, i found a sense of innocence in her. I have never had such an innocent and ............(something is wrong)......well i am back from 1st floor.........the lights went off......and i noticed the laptop 's electricity was off......and was running on battery. I went down to 1st floor's main hall to ask about it.......it will take 3 hours for the electricity to return. Well......all in darknes........All in darkness.....no more lights.......no more internet.....only the laptop still running on limited battery and that is the only light now...........only light in the dark................the songs in my list are still playing......the only melodies being played in the silence of the night. ......this post will only be posted after..everything is back to normal......Well....back to the girl......i really like her....inside out. She is so pure to me........but now...before everything happens, including posting this post.....i will have to stay in the dark.....i am in darkness.....That is my philosophy

My IQ

"............" That is how to express tonight's emotions. Absolutely nothing......No words.......just silence.........because i am "dead" tired........i dragged myself home....really......up the overhead brigde............into the subway stations..........back home............i washed my hand.....it was as dirty as if i left my hands in mud water............maybe better than that......but most importantly....i washed them..........just like how i reclaim my honour.....maybe not that serious too......but 100 percent accuracy is not something that you can see anytime. I know i missed 3 three pointers in a game at clutch......back in singapore two weeks ago.......Kurt was upset.....Tonight.......The game at the start and the end will be the most commentable ones... The players playing with me are adults.....they are good in their ways....The starting game is alright....I made 4 out of 7 for mid range shooting.......2 out of 3 for three point shooting....4 rebounds....3 steals.....2 assists........4 turnovers......Then during the middle...i perform to a " so so " standard....maybe 1 out of 2 .......till "kobe bryant" and the rest of his guys came......i played to a " so so " standard still.......but when i was traded to "kobe's " team , i dont really get to touch the ball ....I should say...i really "suck". No opportunity to perform......and the styles did not match............But.......when 2 guys from outside came in and joined the game.......and after adjustments.......i was with the 2 new guys......a fat but alright player...and a tall player who is alittle skinny but he is fine too.....they are friendlier...than "kobe" of couse.....4 on 4......2 guys...me and a "lebron james" joined our team.......This is when....i made 10 out of 10 from mid range............most are open......or the opponent is 1 metre away from me......but 1 tough shot.......it is almost a miracle.....once the ball is passed to me.......i shoot...and.....nicely DONE!........the ball hog " Kobe" is doing his old things again.....scolding........asking.........blaming all the mistakes that his teammate made.....including this.....right after my shot.....he would ask " whose man is this?" .......the person guarding might be dreaming in the dark because it was 7 pm.......he said he did not even know the person scoring was me. But a 10/10 for field goal is really something tough in these games.....these are not games which are slack....It is really intensive.....that is why my shoulders, waists, back, fingers, legs, feets and toes hurts alot.....hence i need to drag my body home. ......The feelings from during the game to after the game was.....speechless...there was nothing on my mind...........nothing........just shoot.....at will............I will improve.....I believe......That is my philosophy

Holiday now. Training time. Train the drawing of course. And maybe the physical strength. So i am flying to Beijing again spending 45 days there and hence, living alone for most of the time. 31st of August will be the day i fly. 14th of october, i will be back. So.....hang on. Hang on.......~ That is my philosophy

I injured my finger last week. Last Wednesday, i was playing with this bunch of Christians, and i accidentally stepped onto the girl(A) 's foot which has a wound. She fell and she gather all her might and hit me .....right across me ....her fist went.....she stood up and she hit again. i didnt do much but just standing there. After that his brother did a pass, i was intercepting but only my last 2 fingers tipped the ball which was flying at top speed and strength. A sound was heard and my last finger on my left hand was in "S" shape. I was in cold sweat. After X raying at Mount Alvernia, my finger had a dislocation and a piece of bone was being pulled out by the snapped ligament. the forefinger on the left hand suffered a sprain. Last Saturday i visited Mount Elizabeth for that doctor again and it seems fine and i am in a period of recovery. It will take months but i can still play basketball but not as intense as before. And I love my injuries. That is my philosophy

Kurt, Felix and I works best together on the court. Best coordination. I can also say that Luc, Wen Huan, Felix, Kurt and I can form a team. Luc is dominant inside. Tall and strong. With him in the team, we need to do less work as he is dominant inside. Wen Huan is a soft Power forward. He is tall and thin, with soft moves and he blocks well...in fact his trademark will be his blocks. Felix is just as tall as me but not as atheletic, he has excellent inside moves and shoots fine from mid-range with the best defense among us, he is a small forward. Kurt is the all time superstar among us. The best. He is short but he jumps higher than anyone. He is explosive and atheletic. He is jordan to us. He is our point guard, like jason kidd, he does everything. Assists, scores, rebounds, everything. I, lastly, the shooting guard. I shoots fine from outside but not very good. I drives but not so good too. i can be atheletic provided i am in good status that day. Stamina is my weakness. Kurt has always been my model to learn from. I too assists....rebounds and scores. It has been 1 year 8 months since i started playing basketball. With a heart of a rookie still, see what i can do.

Center: Luc, 30 plus years old, about 185cm, muscular, France

Power Forward: Wen Huan, 16 years old, about 183cm, slim, North eastern China

Small Forward: Felix, 18 years old, about 169cm, average, Hong kong, China

Shooting Guard: Zack, 16 years old, about 170cm, extremely slim, South eastern China

Point Guard: Kurt, around 24 to 26 years old about 164cm, muscular, California, USA

Another friday, friday, i was born, my rest day now, and i lost my watch. All on fridays. Tomorrow friday the 13th is a good day. This year's 23rd of november will be another friday. Benjamin Constatine looks like some nigga, funny. Theoritically, i have quite a lot of homeworks. Practically the "alot" will be nothing if i am motivated. I would like to sleep soon, i really promise to have a good sleep tonight. Sleep, rest, I need. Hopefully tomorrow, when i wake up, the birds will sing something to me. 3 years....i need to hang on for 3 years.....and there will be another challenge waiting for me....unknown challenge..... My eyes are closing.......Good night me. Good night moon. That is my philosophy.

That is Sabreena's portrait. I drew it......Sometimes, when you think of what u had and have now, you think it is your fate and it might continue to be this way. You controls your fate or your fate controls you? You can always decide what you want, but some people called the decision made "fate's decision". They are trying to say that no matter how you decide, that is still your fate. I do not want to say whether one controls another but i want to say that all we can do is to decide and do with the time given to us. That is my philosophy.

SRKD-Sincerity(word changed), Righteousness kindheartedness and Dignity. NYP work is like usual, troubles and nothing good it seems. Where i am in is a mess, i need to get out of it. My bed is never so comfortable for the first time in my life i think. To hold on to something seems like an easy task for the mouth, not that simple for action actually. I still have portraits for me to draw and so on...design course work.....This saturday i could play with Kurt again, he is back this week. He has been overseas for 2 weeks. I must practise on friday at least in order to boost my skill again and put on a great show. Shooting......driving.......dribbling.......rebounding......playmaking.........and defencing........all need to improve at once. And my stamina must stay in order to perform well of course......must remember to bring 3 litres of water. I need more motivation to perform in school work.......thats mostly about it. The 2 most important people to me in my design school are Candida(she always helps and friendly) and Maria(friendly and just great). Chris is good in NYP.......funky guy from Bishan Park secondary school but he will be graduating soon. I am getting tired, i should start drawing my 2 portraits. I should finish them fast. Thats what i am good at supposedly.....Sabreena is another great lady, just that i dont understand why she is always sleeping late. Obssessed with many things similar to mine. My brain....started to not working properly as minutes passed....should refresh myself after ending this. After tomorrow will be friday, free day. Another weekend comes. Yes.....another one....... my first friday was on 23rd of november............i stayed up late at that time too. I scratched myself hard these days. My skin is bad.....very bad..It is incredible........That is my philosophy