I am history.......yes.....Tomorrow will be biology practical for O levels...see?.......thats what i mean by you are already be dead before you noticed it.....O levels in 21 days i think.....6 of november will be the first paper.....luckily there is 6 days of rest between chemistry and maths...my enemies now are maths, chemistry and biology....humanities and english i have some confidence....My world of white, black and grey colours....who knew the real colours behind it?....hmm That is my philosophy

Olevels coming soon......days getting quicker.....i am not afraid of it of course....there is no time to think about it...my days are numbered....All i know was as long as i am still alive......i hope everyone will live happily.....to have no problems...no more troubles to bother all of you.......may the world live in peace.....i know it is too idealistic.....not realistic....nor possible........yes.....days are always numbered...as i always say.....before you knew it....you are gone......people could only concentrate on the matters right in front of them....there is no other choice....my fate..my destiny...my life...my world....myself and my philosophy...That is my philosophy

Prelim is over.....over....failed all but english....next will be O levels......The sky is dark....now.....Soon...we will move on....to another stage...there will be no rest..the tape of life moves on...playing non-stop...some got cut...on the way....some cut themselves....some played till the end....Now...and sometimes...try to reflect what you have done these years....or your life so far...if u can still remember.....making different choices in the past made what you are now...That is my philosophy

Prelim is gone....gone...fail all except English now....excluding my chinese which already scored distinction for O level....If my SS scored below 28/50 ...i will fail humanities....then English will be the only subject i pass....Well....it has been more than 2 months since the last time i cut my hair..well.....today....after school....went for hair cut....slashing away the long curly ones.....that forms the S shape...I felt cooler now....cool down myself....away from prelim..onward to O levels..into the future...That is my philosophy

Felt bored.....no one seems.....something wrong with one of my friends too......hardly anyone talked to me.....nevermind.....kept sighing....sojiro...his eternal smile.......because he locked his feelings...That is my philosophy

Tomorrow i will go to school again, to finish my chemistry paper1 and 2...and marks the end of prelim. Next, O level starts soon..end of october..and early november...smash through the enemies, we must. After O level finished at 17 of november...6 days later will be my birthday..i never celebrated my birthday since 5 ..till last years' november in beijing....in the new house..
..i really hope that i can escape to beijing in case my O levels result is not good...but i actually wish to have my birthday this year in singapore....as i say...life after O level will be unstable...having your birthday at the end of the year is a wonderful thing....as its the end of a year...always feel fresh to welcome it unless you are in some kind of difficult situation...i am going to sharpen my spear for now..That is my philosophy

I could finally rest today......fell ill on tuesday.....blocked nose...then cough and during chemistry practical ..fever started..and i beared a headache to do my maths paper two....although i try to seem healthy in school....now left only chemistry papers next week for prelim...31 days to O level....thanks to marleen's count down..to always make us stay alert......i felt alot better yesterday as i listened to the new songs of jay chou...the headache and fever were gone....today felt fine.....nose still unclear...my throat too....but could feel that i am recovering....for O levels...you either stay healthy....or just die.......because if u had some illness like this..you have to continue the exam with that uncomfortable feeling....when u stay healthy..u can do with full strength.....or just die so that you would not need to do anything anymore....31 days........alright...fate will be changed in 30 days.....because it must be changed......That is my philosophy

Ho Ho Ho ....Oh....Oh ...Prelim week....fighting violently everyday.....I actually hoped that the dean or professor there in the central art academy in beijing to say that i can expand in this area then my mom would decide straight to stay in beijing and study art...else i need to return to singapore after O level...but i will come back anyway to take my results....if doing art..then go back again...if not...the professor say something else...or my mom decides to let me stay here...i have no choice to continue the study here...I just feel that leaving may be better for me....if my mom decides to let me study there....then many changes will be made..returning to singapore will be only a "need or not" question. It means might not return to singapore anymore....Everything seem to be decided by fate...some of the people believe this hence they sit there and do nothing....I still believe that there is hope...if u think it is impossible then do not do anything....after i attain my goals...i will change your fate for you........fight for what you think is worth...even though you think you could not change your destiny......"cant penetrate the defenses?.....trust yourself and your buddies...shoot from where you are and see, wait and hope. That is my philosophy

Prelim coming...its alright..O level is what we are waiting for....now...left eng, his/ss, maths, bio, chem for O levels....trying to fill the brain with enough fuel before going to the exam hall.....and last last night i was in bed....death was again in my mind...the ultimate fear....my computer will be repaired later this year..CD rom driver need to be opened to save my files and reformatted. Exam is no longer battle to me...exam is exam ....That is my philosophy

I slept in a 6 star hotel last night..(Ritz Carlton).have to look around to know what are the latest designs of the world.....i have only more than a month to O levels...and next week will be the Prelims....No matter i would leave for Beijing or stay in singapore....i think i must do well for my O levels....My mom came back a week ago and will be leaving next monday for Italy..she will be back a month later....last thursday i finally met my primary school classmates........had their msn addresses...found that actually they are some kind of good friends even though we have not met for 3 years....i recognised everyone of them ....able to called their names as soon as they jumped out from nowhere......normally.....i am the one remembering others....After prelim....i will have a rest for one day......my job later will most probably be Artist or Designer or Architect..artist being the hardest.....toughest.....even i have talent....interest in it....lots of effort is needed to put into the daily practices of sketching in order to become a successful...extraordinary artist....And also have to move around the world to explore....look around.....to have more ideas of life. Slowly...I can feel that life is moving into another stage......where it is more complicated and much more to learn and tackle problems....if nothing big happened like war or disaster.....we might be able to rest in peace...That is my philosophy

Last friday, played basketball...sprained both my ankles at the same time....fell to the ground immediately...ahhhh...crawled with my arms to aside. Today is Chinese prelim exam hence i need not to go to school. O level coming.....Prelim come first. Hope that everything should improve. Battles soon arrive. That is my philosophy

54 days to O levels.....alright....prelim starts after next next week.....english prelim will be next week.....just now in school...doing the maths paper 2........mock exam....kept dreaming.....lots of things rushed into my mind....about teachers' day......former years'......and primary school classmates and teacher that i have not seen each other since 2001.........those "slide shows" kept stopping me continue doing my paper......i am thinking of going back to see them...but the school ends....and by the time i reached there....its in bugis....victoria street....everyone will be gone...so could only hope that school ends earlier but....looks abit hard......i could not absent myself....the letter is difficult to write i think....must be former nowadays.......... ............After O level....there are a few way for me to go....i might...go for a polytechnic.....or....i am going back to china..to study in the high school that is associated with the central academy of art in Beijing...the best in china....while singapore 's art academy Nafa is only "so so" standard to them.......my life after O level will be like a sailor....arts is my only talent.....so far...........i remain silent.....That is my philosophy

Today is friday....tomorrow will be saturday again..will make use of these days well.......today...had biology then english.....during recess...was with Jervena, Tammy and Su qi. Then after that was 2 periods of a maths....stayed in the library at first but after the first hour, we heard the announcement and made our way to the hall to receive our mother tongue O level result...a teacher and the principal gave some speech first....and told us we need to buck up....showing us our percentage of passes and grade 1 s we have this time.....then the big screen flashed the top 6 students that scored distinction this time.....from 1 to 6.....1.Yao Zi Wei (4E2)....2.Guo pan 4E3.....3. Yan Yan 4E3.....4.Liu Chang 4E3.....5.Lai Tang Lin 4E3...6 is a malay from 5A2....four 4E3 students....scored distinction.....none from 4E1 this time....quite surprised........actually the four of them ....and me are from the 1st chinese class...so it is not surprising.........i am not surprise i am one of them......i supposed to have this kind of result for mother tongue....and this is only one subject.....after receiving the results....quite a number of people came to me....congratulating......really appreciate that.....but they seem to think i am the first........i though i know it is just arranged by o level index number but we all have the same grades....so i think i might have 1/6 chance of being top..haha....if counting only top in chinese(one of them is malay)....then 1/5......i think that does not matter...A1 is enough.........I had a basketball session with a few boys after that.....then went home.....and sleep......while the music was loud..............sky grew dark now........actually....i do not feel anything now....That is my philosophy

*cough cough cough cough cough*... today had only 2 hours of school....went home immediately after the most boring celebration i have ever had.....our school's celebration is getting worse each year.......nevermind.....I went down for some basketball after that...at about 11 am....after the group of people are gone...i played alone till a few Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary boys came.....i played with them before......looks like they are graduating this year too.....we just took turns to shoot....then they left......I left after a while too.....at the start the sky looks dull......then the sun showed its face.....and the wind was really comforting.......now...the sun is bright.....mm...I think i need to do something useful today....my life has not ended yet.......That is my philosophy

I...have been coughing for more than 3 days.....still did not see any *cough...cough cough* recovering sign....chest hurts........a bit of breathing difficulty if slept on bed.......not comfortable......i do not like this feeling......silent....room....locked...That is my philosophy

*Cough cough*......fho......raining now.........sky is dark......my room too......tomorrow will be another round of THE WEEK...need to buck up.....really need....not for myself..........sometimes...when u fought hard and there is a happy ending, stay with it.....because continuing might lead u to something worse. That is my philosophy

Everyday...we are closer to the examinations.....prepare...is all we can do now....and stay cool....avoid the sun.....do not be too hot....be cool.....if needed...froze yourself....and warm up abit...let the water flow down your body...and evaporates....cool......the sun will burn you absolutely.....so start chewing ice.......that controls your body temperature......froze your brain.by..drinking and eating cool stuff...........the sun will be covered by the clouds soon.......then you could start feeling the cool breeze......and looking up to the sky.......the sky that would not harm eyes with piercing light......That is my philosophy

Today....after finishing school.....today....i felt something......again.....felt philosophical again......the whole day....after biology...food tests....i tore out a whole piece of destroyed membrane from a piece of flesh of the onion...just a thin piece........it flew and float in the air....above me.....if you do not look closely....might thought that it was a butterfly......float up and down.......while i stare at it.....i kept it later......brought it back........then was English lesson....then recess....had the same thing....after recess...the 2 hours of free period .....a friend(magnum) stay beside me...in the library.........he read my SPI book....while I fell.....asleep....till the end of the 2 hours........i felt better after the rest.......then the form teacher period....break.....looking at the band members(bentoh and rabbit) and some from our class.....dressed in formal attire...the choir and dance members too........board the buses....i was at a bench......the buses left......i stared silently....then walked to the laboratory..silently.....followed by chemistry practical....our class....had some terrible scolding from the teacher.....but it was alright....then came the rain...not that heavy....i have my light blue umbrella opened......then half way...bookworm(wee yang) join me.....and shared the umbrella......reached bus stop...joke with robot(jeffrey) and some other classmates...on the bus........then half way through....everyone alighted...i sat there..alone.....as usual........*close eyes*..........reached home.....Bishan was not raining.....my cousin was playing games as usual......i took a shower....and after looking at my cousin playing computer games....i fell asleep......until 8pm..........then watch him played till 10pm.....i had the chance to go online....just felt today was a bit different from other days........~_-....tonight..some of my classmates went to perform...some went to watch...at Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts........i did not go..........the guy who is good in maths and sciences is online....(zhe xuan)..........now.....this is my reflection of the day........-_~A day like this is what many people wish for.......That is my philosophy

My skin was supposed to be that colour....how fair....almost like Ju-On...Now....I look so different....mmm....boy...boy...we done the same things in school everyday.....3 months only.....believe it or not.....chem...bio....maths...Human.....Eng. Life is a pencil that keep on drawing on a piece of paper till it is fully used up one day.......what to draw?......It keeps on moving.....so decide fast......dont leave any regrets.....draw draw draw.....That is my philosophy

Towards O levels....ok...ya...em......huh......We have less than a century to live...some might have more ....what are we going to do when we are still here.........next moment we are gone..........At the start: long way to go........middle:I have come this far.mm.....half way..........end:..here ends my story....*close eyes* ....or simply gone before you noticed it...here ends my post...That is my philosophy