The drawing drawn a year ago became the drawing of today. Although not detailed but i still like it alot. At the time i was drawing it, the man on the page in my school notebook represented me. Today, it still represent me but it is slightly different......because....time has passed...........As i said.....life is a game which you could not save and load.........once past.....it is gone........once missed something.......the tide would continue to push you on.........the missed......will be forever lost........Maybe you can retrieve it some other time in the future....but at that point of time....when you lost it............it was lost. Lifting myself up might be one of the most important job to do right now.......motivation........ I am not doing things productively yet........since the end of O levels last year.......Holiday made me used to the feeling....of time flowing past me like a river returning back to the sea.......I have none of my fighting spirits left.......I have used to the days of resting. I think i am afraid of getting hurt.......yes.....hurt......Some people hope that everything was a dream.......some hope to be in a dream..........I am sleep walking.......or i am on my bed.......half asleep..........i thought again......falling deep into a sleep is not that scary...for now at least........hence it ease my fear..for death. That is my philosophy

Empressement...Righteousness...Kindheartedness...Dignity..............
Remember...that..zack...remember it till the end...............................................I fight for Empressement. I am truthful to anyone and anything and I will want to find out as much truths in the world in the time given to me. I fight for Righteousness. I am righteous, i am upright and i hate evil and untruthful living creatures. I fight for Kindheartedness. To forgive and to love is the greatest strength, even if the person is your enemy. Benevolence is for everyone even for those who destroys it.....but no mercy should be shown when one persistantly commiting the same crime. Receive your forgiveness in hell. I can fight....for Dignity....to die as well....but dying for honour on the way of my life for something is not honourable enough. To continue living and waiting for one day.....one day.....to reclaim my dignity. That is the most honourable thing to do.....also with great endurance......of ultimate humiliation. That is right. That is me. That is my philosophy

This is the first week of my term break. I have to get things started....a few projects and a few preparation work......and homework......added up to almost 10 i guess...I had quite a good time at the BB primers orientation camp last sunday...although i went for a day only. Tomorrow i will be meeting jeanie. Well, i do not know what we should do actually..but i think it will be just talking and eating. Yesterday, early in the morning.....I went to Mac Rhitchie. Into the jungle, we got into bushes first....filled with a bit of water. Then the tall bushes which we stepped on them when we walked......Bbqcow asked me repeatedly whether we should proceed. I always replied them the same answer. Go.....proceed. Then came swarms.....muddy water mostly....some is like quicksand.........some reached our knee........some reached out thigh when we returned. The land walk was not that fantastic too.....we chose a bad route. In fact there were no path.. We made them. some point it was just filled with fallen trees and branches. We were all scratched on our arms and hands....30 scratches......50 scratches.......hell to with those branches and that specifc plant or tree with thorns...When we were very close to the shrine.. the GPS.... was gone.. no more battery. Our founder ordered to retreat....yes....retreat............retreat...hm.....retreat huh.....So we got ourselves back....by the original road. Rain water washed us. We were close. We will find it next time. We will never retreat. Or at least I....The leader needs to be more "leader". That is my philosohy

PSS, i am the second biggest here. More and more people will get to know us....including spies. So far i have been to a SPI tour, and some joint exercise with SPI. Next week i will be going for a meeting hosted SPI....and i will be the only PSS representative there. I will be settling some problems with them. The SPI spooky walk was alright...we get to know another group of people called the SUPERNATURALS. They look more professional....they dressed like some SEAL teams....we are affiliating with all of them. Mt Faber was alright just i had a fall.....a roll to be specific. Last night was a joint investigation with SPI , to Fort Serapong but the gate there was found locked.....so we aborted the mission and we left the SPI and went for a mansion...we had some investigation there......i was being left at 1st floor alone....then 2nd floor....i recorded some sounds.....and another point to take note was......the feeling i felt at Old Changi Commando Barrack and the mansion.....was the same.....my right part of my body had the feeling of being pressed.......its the feeling of the psychic eye(the one where u put yout finger very close to between your eyes, and there will be a strong feeling). The feeling has transferred to the whole right side of my body....my right arm.....and especially my back....the back on the right side was feeling most uncomfortable.....The sound in the mansion was like someone knocking on metal stuff....or nailing something......repeatedly as soon as 2 of our friends left for other places while i was sitting at second floor corridor and founder was at 1st floor. Next week, my friends will be going to rediscover Shinto Shrine. While I will be going for SPI meeting....i dont think i can go for the investigation. Next week.....will not be an easy week.......but who said any week is going to be easy? That is my philosophy