Prelim is over.....over....failed all but english....next will be O levels......The sky is dark....now.....Soon...we will move on....to another stage...there will be no rest..the tape of life moves on...playing non-stop...some got cut...on the way....some cut themselves....some played till the end....Now...and sometimes...try to reflect what you have done these years....or your life so far...if u can still remember.....making different choices in the past made what you are now...That is my philosophy

Prelim is gone....gone...fail all except English now....excluding my chinese which already scored distinction for O level....If my SS scored below 28/50 ...i will fail humanities....then English will be the only subject i pass....Well....it has been more than 2 months since the last time i cut my hair..well.....today....after school....went for hair cut....slashing away the long curly ones.....that forms the S shape...I felt cooler now....cool down myself....away from prelim..onward to O levels..into the future...That is my philosophy

Felt bored.....no one seems.....something wrong with one of my friends too......hardly anyone talked to me.....nevermind.....kept sighing....sojiro...his eternal smile.......because he locked his feelings...That is my philosophy

Tomorrow i will go to school again, to finish my chemistry paper1 and 2...and marks the end of prelim. Next, O level starts soon..end of october..and early november...smash through the enemies, we must. After O level finished at 17 of november...6 days later will be my birthday..i never celebrated my birthday since 5 ..till last years' november in beijing....in the new house..
..i really hope that i can escape to beijing in case my O levels result is not good...but i actually wish to have my birthday this year in singapore....as i say...life after O level will be unstable...having your birthday at the end of the year is a wonderful thing....as its the end of a year...always feel fresh to welcome it unless you are in some kind of difficult situation...i am going to sharpen my spear for now..That is my philosophy

I could finally rest today......fell ill on tuesday.....blocked nose...then cough and during chemistry practical ..fever started..and i beared a headache to do my maths paper two....although i try to seem healthy in school....now left only chemistry papers next week for prelim...31 days to O level....thanks to marleen's count down..to always make us stay alert......i felt alot better yesterday as i listened to the new songs of jay chou...the headache and fever were gone....today felt fine.....nose still unclear...my throat too....but could feel that i am recovering....for O levels...you either stay healthy....or just die.......because if u had some illness like this..you have to continue the exam with that uncomfortable feeling....when u stay healthy..u can do with full strength.....or just die so that you would not need to do anything anymore....31 days........alright...fate will be changed in 30 days.....because it must be changed......That is my philosophy

Ho Ho Ho ....Oh....Oh ...Prelim week....fighting violently everyday.....I actually hoped that the dean or professor there in the central art academy in beijing to say that i can expand in this area then my mom would decide straight to stay in beijing and study art...else i need to return to singapore after O level...but i will come back anyway to take my results....if doing art..then go back again...if not...the professor say something else...or my mom decides to let me stay here...i have no choice to continue the study here...I just feel that leaving may be better for me....if my mom decides to let me study there....then many changes will be made..returning to singapore will be only a "need or not" question. It means might not return to singapore anymore....Everything seem to be decided by fate...some of the people believe this hence they sit there and do nothing....I still believe that there is hope...if u think it is impossible then do not do anything....after i attain my goals...i will change your fate for you........fight for what you think is worth...even though you think you could not change your destiny......"cant penetrate the defenses?.....trust yourself and your buddies...shoot from where you are and see, wait and hope. That is my philosophy

Prelim coming...its alright..O level is what we are waiting for....now...left eng, his/ss, maths, bio, chem for O levels....trying to fill the brain with enough fuel before going to the exam hall.....and last last night i was in bed....death was again in my mind...the ultimate fear....my computer will be repaired later this year..CD rom driver need to be opened to save my files and reformatted. Exam is no longer battle to me...exam is exam ....That is my philosophy

I slept in a 6 star hotel last night..(Ritz Carlton).have to look around to know what are the latest designs of the world.....i have only more than a month to O levels...and next week will be the Prelims....No matter i would leave for Beijing or stay in singapore....i think i must do well for my O levels....My mom came back a week ago and will be leaving next monday for Italy..she will be back a month later....last thursday i finally met my primary school classmates........had their msn addresses...found that actually they are some kind of good friends even though we have not met for 3 years....i recognised everyone of them ....able to called their names as soon as they jumped out from nowhere......normally.....i am the one remembering others....After prelim....i will have a rest for one day......my job later will most probably be Artist or Designer or Architect..artist being the hardest.....toughest.....even i have talent....interest in it....lots of effort is needed to put into the daily practices of sketching in order to become a successful...extraordinary artist....And also have to move around the world to explore....look around.....to have more ideas of life. Slowly...I can feel that life is moving into another stage......where it is more complicated and much more to learn and tackle problems....if nothing big happened like war or disaster.....we might be able to rest in peace...That is my philosophy