Monday, June 08, 2009

Yes, yes yes. Time after time, we human take breaks from everything. When we are tired with one activity, we move on to the other, then vice versa. This has and will always be the case. My first term of year 3 is ending in 2 weeks' time, everyone in the studio have tons of work to complete, or maybe live through them. I am finding myself in ditches from time to time, unable to move on with gun shots suppressing on my head, when i move on finally, thinking that i make it through again, just like previous ones, i thought i could not make it, well....few more steps ahead, there is another gun post and then, ended up in another ditch i have. So problems.......is about staying in a ditch, a hole, a shelter, a cover, with suppressing fire on you. What is going to happen next, that can be decided by you. Hit? or run?, sometimes hit and run, sometimes run but will come back again. Some just keep hitting, suppressing the problematic gun fire. If that is the case, I bet the person has pretty good weapons. It is now, middle of 2009, one look back and one look ahead, I know what I suppose to do, and most importantly, do what I supposed to. I had a communication "knocked out" last week, both my internet and cellphone is gone. Phone is back, but internet is yet to be resolved. I guess i can rest a little as I continue to proceed to the next stage. Rest is very important, crucial and vital. Nothing goes on forever. Everything has a limited lifespan, and charging up is just to extend that little time to the fullest. I have been thinking about the soon to come chance, i know, people has been asking me too. Well, i will say it is a difficult thing to say, many would say that too, i have my own literatures and questions. But i am learning to be focus. Write a novel only after you have finished with your war experience, not during it, and definitely not before it. Change comes from time to time, a fresh way of living arrives everytime perhaps. That is also the time where you can finally move on to the next chapter when you are tired reading this one. Sometimes........you just need some movements to stimulate the change, they would not happen for you all the time, in fact, most needs you for the change to happen. May the change enlightens you. That is my philosophy