Today...i started not to bother about hundreds of shots....i just practised and see....tomorrow will be the day to test out.....keep my energy for tomorrow. Tomorrow i will be back.....the old serious self on the court........If i do not get too nervous, i think i will be fine. So keep calm. I will rest now. Besides that, i will lock my warmth back....regain my coolness....and seriousness. I know a day will come again where it need to be freed from its prison again. That is my philosophy

Few hours ago i enrolled on the NYP website. Finally, done! This morning i continued with my shooting practice....and i feel real good....I felt good since the first day which was yesterday....i really felt my shooting already improved just in 2 days.....I shall continue everyday.....and hopefully i can get the standard i want....and just keep improving non-stop....after my normal "no-tricks involved" shots have reached an satisfying level. My shots will be first tested out this saturday...2 more days of practices till saturday..3600shots by then..and i will make sure i will perform well. The feeling of the ball is great! That is the meaning of practise makes perfect. That is my philosophy

Promise....How much does a promise worth?....That will depend on what a person promises. Nothing can buy a promise from someone.....if it can....i am telling you....it is no longer a promise....I promised Liying that i will finished the sketch of her face in a photo...although it has been really quite some time....but i promised....i will finished it....when i find back my feeling to draw.....it would not take much longer. I told Felix that i should practise shooting.....to make our team stronger.....because i am the only person who can afford to practise everyday.......although that is not a promise to him....it is promise to myself....900 shots everyday is my target....or actually compulsory....300shots from left, centre and right at close range....300 at mid-range...300 at long range....all these will be done inside 3 point line. I will master the 2 pointers......as long as i can knock down open shots.....we will have a better chance of winning.....my shots would be more accurate....which also would draw opponent to me....to loosen the pressure at the inside perimeter......Frankly saying....i have not practise shooting for a long time since i had friends coming to play with me........So, tomorrow morning, i will put the NYP evelope into the post box first...then my first 900 will start..........I hope i will become a pure shooter after sometime.......now then i knew....my road to a pure shooter have not yet begun. That is my philosophy

I drove again this morning....because the one guarding me is a girl again.....man!.......we really need to improve....in order to trash them for that....TTFT. I finished my energy at the 1st 2 matches.....I watched a full-court match....by Felix, Kurt and 3 army men....against the Bishan East CC boys who are the boys that played here almost everyday. Great match as i watch Kurt performed........but Kurt got angry ....and pushed a ITE guy away.....after Kurt dribbled the ball into the 3 point line......He gave a push suddenly while saying.....get the fuck off man...something like that.......well...i think it is cool.......my slogan "TTFT-Trash Them For That".......is also my goal.......in order to trash....practise first..That is my philosophy

Jeffrey was here again. Watching a bit of videos and watched us played basketball. The last match was a good one. 4 v.s. 3. Ernest, Felix and me against 3 girls and a tough guy. The girls are always killer shooters and close defender. Especially LiJia, a rough defender, hence i chose not to guard her today. We played hard.....and our score was 10-4 at first but the match dragged as long as 20 minutes more because we did not score and the girls and that guy scored consecutively....till the score was 10-10.....but we managed to grab a rebound at the most important moment....as i stood still at the centre of the three point line...with a girl in front close.......my mind had nothing then.....10-10.....one wrong move now can get us all killed......Just then, the 2 girls and that guy all went slightly to the left in the inside box to guard ernest and felix at the left side.....and my move was made.........drive in and scored the open lay-up........When i stood below the hoop, watching their 10th ball went in.....the feeling was....speechless......it was hard to believe that we let them caught up with 6 points.........When we got the pocession of the ball......in my hand before the offence.......1 point means means winning or losing.....when i layed the ball in.......as i watched it......i know....it was over.....i missed all my jump shots....as it was dark......abit more defenders.....rushing abit though.....but the main reason was i am not in good status today.........i scored only 2 points which was by driving in and layed it in.....my first was drive passed 3 defender and got it.....while the last was open and smooth.......Well.....i had my right ankle cramped.....but it would be alright..... I was fired up for a few times since that day.......now.....whenever i was provoked .....in some ways.....i will start playing with total strength......because i play ball nowadays....and not playing seriously.....so only when something hit me.....i will be on my top alertness.......So, people asked why am i still thinking about this match even though it was over. I said......they are girls......killer shooters and evil defender..........i treat everyone the same when we are in court.....should not defend loosely or play slacker just because there are girls in the match......for me....should be more serious when there are girls.....because they are playing against me....my opponents....my enemies..the end. That is my philosophy

Tomorrow morning i will go to Ngee Ann city for medical check up.Today i think i will complete a couple of forms and wait for the billing thing to be completed by my mother in china. Looks like Poly will be a troublesome place to stay and learn. Crappy crap..hem! hem!... Its humid and warm here....and my face is going through the worst time ever....i thought...........my skin is bad too...i need to sleep early today in order to wake up at 8 30 am tomorrow. I failed today because i could not wake up. i could not sleep last night....looks like it is going to rain. That is my philosophy

Oh...my gosh....Today...damn....although played with some alot better players.....but i hardly made shots or score for most of the games...just because the person guarding me is a girl. She guarded so close...sticking to me....I cant made shots....or even get passes from others.....and she blocked one of my 2 shots in a game......man!..............She kept chasing after me.....she defended like a mosquito......really STICK onto me.....felt really uneasy man.......Other than the craps that happened....Kurt told me that i should change my way of playing....Always dribble...Drive 1st, Pass 2nd then shooting from outside must always put at the last option....hence...i will take note of that....because...my top piorities are shoot or pass.....then dribble......lastly will be drive to the hoop....looks like i got the standard offensive way of basketball wrong huh......I played 6 hours today......and i had breakfast at 10am....I did not have my lunch......and my dinner just started just now...after i woke up from my nap. Man!.........Damn......i felt so shitty today.....I also felt that i am getting dumber..am i ?......*faint*.....I still felt sleepy....in fact i felt giddy.....Well, Jing Wen went for the trial shoot for the modelling this morning and it looked fine i think after messaging her.....I hope the scar on my face would fade away....That is my philosophy

Audrey Hepburn....a movie star at the end of the last century. My mom looks like her, as many said so....ye..a little.... Tomorrow will be another basketball match.....in fact i have not play any this week. Soon, i will receive my enrolment package from NYP and get it done. I heard that school starts on 16 of April so it is about a month more to go. It has been quite a period of time since i last finished school in Bishan park secondary. I hope the new environment will not be too bad. Life is going to get busier for lazy bugs...So Far....those people such as Zhe Xuan, Benjamin Gwee and Deborah has gone into YJC, BenToh, Pei yi gone to NP, some people such as Estee and Wei Sinn have gone to SP...Rachel Charles and Zi Yun has gone to RP.....all over the place i can say. Jeffrey is with me....Cheng yi....Jia Wen and Guo liang...they are the ones going to NYP....but not my course of course.....the enrolment for my course is about 40 students....quite small in population comparing to Jeffrey's Mechatronics which is about 600 students. I dont want others to call me freak again.............That is my philosophy

..Today....i spent most of the time sleeping......Only at the afternoon....i played with basketball with Felix and Ernest......felix might be the last in the few months.....He is going for National Service today, tuesday. Tonight i went to Douby gaut.......with Jeffrey again.......to play lan...at Princep Street.....and met Jojo......from TP......she is working there till 3:30 am.....while Jeffrey and I played for 3 hours....then returned to Bishan and have supper.....before returning home...Jojo will be returning home soon ..... I hope she gets home....and sleep.......thats all. After i was home....i watched a movie......about a spanish captain's life.....starring Viggo Mortenson(spelling might not be right) from Lord of The Rings.........should I said it was more of a tragedic life?........He did not stay with his beloved woman.......he spent his life killing....and taking on missions given by royal families........at last, he ended his life in the battle against the French.......yes.......every men dies.........hope that.......I hope that........ ...I could choose the way of my own death even though i wish to stay forever......That is my philosophy

......I played basketball for 6 days this week.......with Felix...Ernest.....Song Yuan........Kurt......Jeffrey.....going out .....a little.............my thigh hurts......so do my toes.....no nails.....or blue blacks..........tomorrow ...will be the last game with Felix...he is going to National Service. So far....since last month.....i knew more people online.....Clare...Cheryl..Si Min....Eunice....Yeelee.....etc. More people to talk to when i log on to msn. 1 night ago....Jojo from TP, asked me whether i knew anyone that wants to be a model....for her company......i recommended Jing Wen....because thats her dream.....as far as i know. She is going for a trial shoot i heard from Jojo....so i wish JingWen....could get what she want.......hopefully.....mmm..The songs i listened to when i was in beijing and nanjing has been played here......although its so warm.....i can still remember how cold it is when i first listen to those songs........That is my philosophy

Today, this movie made me cried. The battle of the island, Iwo Jima between United States and Empire of Japan. Suicides...killings.....deaths.....emotions....The letters of the died soldiers are left to bring their hope home......the hope of returning home......In the movie, a japanese officer told his men.....do what was right.............the commander of Iwo Jima told his men before he lead the last charge himself.......a day will come when they will weep and pray for your souls.......i will always be infront of you.........and when the commander was going to shoot himself while lying on the ground.....alone with the main character, he asked the soldier....is this still japan?........then shot himself..........the second starring character ......saigo....the ordinary soldier....survived.....the last moment was him lying at the beach on a stretcher with other wounded US marine soldiers.....before he left the cave.....he buried the letters of hope...into the cave....which later being discovered in 2005......shown in the movie...........hope......in letters.......letters of hope....That is my philosophy

This week.....i practised basketball everyday.....but.....something is wrong everyday.....Monday, the ball accidentally hit right into my face, hurting my nose.......Tuesday, while checking the ball, it hit my mouth, making my lips bleed.....Today, wednesday,......I knocked my head and chin with a uncle during a collision in a game, and i tasted blood once more........there are 2 wounds in my mouth......so much accidents huh.........i am waiting for the coming saturday morning where i can play with kurt, the american player........i hope i would not injured myself again.........the last game at the court was not a pleasant one.....a guy's disgusting laughters and jokes, with their fouls on my friend consecutively makes me burn finally, i start defending like crazy....stealing..........and passing.......Today, my double personalities.......showed only one me....the warm me has been burned.....while the cold me took over totally........the very cold me.......i feel it....when i was playing my last game today......i feel it when i ask the return of the ball tonight.......and i feel it....when the guy who borrowed the ball asked me a question......i turned around and did not answer........I continue walking away....and turned back the next second............My emotions had a froze bite........tonight........after i played..........basketball.....for 6 hours today.....................The sky on my head is dull........filling my mind with nothing......but more blanks......."nothingness"......."feelingless".......and of course.......the passing of time......That is my philosophy

This morning at 9, i checked my posting online from the JAE website. I was posted to my second choice-C83(Industrial Design). I am going to Nanyang Polytechnic, the School of Design.....Another matter is settled...Jeffrey the robot is going into NYP, school of Engineering while Cheng Yi was posted to NYP too...Other than that, i have not seen others going NYP yet. They are going NP(Bentoh&Peiyi), SP(Weisinn,Lengheng,Songwen), RP(Devan). So far those are all i knew. Soon, a mail will be delivered to my post for enrolment to NYP. Then start schooling again. *Yawn*....i want to get some rest first. That is my philosophy

Today, at 9:30 am, I woke up and took a shower. After few minutes past 10, i went down to play basketball with Kurt, the American friend and Felix, from Catholic Junior College. We had a full court match today.....5 against 5....Our 5 are Kurt(nickname Steve Nash/Jason Kidd), Felix(nickname Point Center), Ernest(AJC nickname LeBron James), an Anderson JC boy which i forgot his name and me(Zack). Our opponents today are really bad compared to us which is because they are not basketballer(they hardly or almost never practised)...and all of them younger than us...they are secondary school boys. We trashed them with scores like 50-20......Just because our opponents are much weaker, everyone of us had good statistics...all of us scored, passed, assisted, dribbled, rebounded and stole their ball.....Kurt is just like what he is....giving assists....and chances to us to perform and always the best actually. Felix is interested in becoming center but his size is making him a guard instead....but he is good in the paint...making many "hooks"..that is his special move...to score, he is an all-time serious player which started playing basketball late too. Ernest has shot the 3s...and went into the paint but actually Kurt and Felix are the only ones capable in scoring in the paint....but Ernest is alright with his lay ups which start scoring from the very begining. AJC player is another serious player which kept dribbling and defended the opponent once he stepped into our half court. He made shots and lay ups too....but his inside scoring and lay ups are still in need of improvement. About me, i scored nothing at the start, i start to score only in the middle. I did not defend at all because i know today's opponent is a total crap....why?.....because alot of times....only 1 opponent dribbled the ball to us......while the rest of his 4 teamates were standing still in the other half of the court. I made about 5 shots out of 8 or 9. I missed the first 2 three pointers and scored 1 three point finally after some time for me to warm up. The 3 point, the only 3 point today is very funny. The funny part was when i got back to the ground after i jumped and gave that shot, everyone including me staring at that ball flying in the air...all this happened in less than half a second...and i said out loud" MISS".....but the ball flew into the hoop at the second....soft and nice....and Kurt started laughing while telling me.....like "EH......zaCK!..HAHA".....Then i scored a couple of 2 pointers......then....the lay up which i did not expect to score....I am the player that just started to learn lay ups actually....and i lay up in the face of that opponent after making an adjustment to avoid his defence...and i ran back happily to my half court. The last one was nicely done, perhaps the best, my finest moment. I got a steal...a hard one...both the person got stolen and i were like slipping down.....but i got the ball after a few moves....and drives to their baseline quick, made a break at the baseline because a guy was defending....turn to my left....where the direction of the hoop is, one quick step back and gave a jump shot....and scored!.....from the baseline...and again i ran back to my half court ...where my 4 other players were......standing there.....from far, i saw Kurt, Ernest and Felix i think.....raising their arms high with the first finger pointing towards my direction....and i did the same.......When i returned, Kurt was telling me that the moves i did just now were NBA style..." Steals the ball, drives in and a jump shot" said Kurt. I felt great although I dragged myself for the rest of the practices in the half court because of fatigue. After practice.....Felix and I went to MacDonald's for lunch....and had some talks......then went to the basketball court to shoot around for a while. I went to his home and watched NBA replay together(Miami Heat.vs.Dallas Mavericks). I gone home later.....doing my same old thing again...Today looks more lively.......i am looking forward for next's weekend's practice. YeaH. That is my philosophy

So bloody bored u know.....It rained for 2 days!....i stayed at home...in front of my computer for 2 days too......Bloody hell...i am feeling sick.....of boredom....Actually this picture is very bored too....look at his expression....he gave that face....that as if he won with no effort at all......like " i am so bored....is this the best u all can give me?" So .....summary....bored......boredom kills. That is my philo....wait a minute...i have not finish yet...i heard that i will know which poly i will be posted to by 6th of March....good...good.....tomorrow will be better......basketball weekend comes.......That is my philosophy