A few days have passed. Things changed. Closer to something. Further from something. We are not in a game. We could not save and load from files. Once done cannot redo. Time is flowing. How much time left? I will know when time comes. I think i will choose to die early when i can still have the ability to think, see, hear, taste, smell and feel. Hope that i can gather everyone and invite them to a dinner then i can end myself. That is my philosophy

I have started my first story-"TheHopeToSeeTheEnd"......the story may appear boring to some people....because of the peaceful storyline....not too much excitement...because the whole time you can only imagine was a man in the second floor of a european cottage....thick snow covers the ground............if a person could not think philosophically, he or she may not know the meaning behind it....may not have feel how is it felt like to be in some difficult situations.........the main character is a 20 year-old man.......an Austrian...fromVienna...joined the German army almost at the end of World War 2.........the whole thing has nothing to do with war....just a little man's thoughts....in a winter which could be the last season for him..........last chance to see this world......it was still snowing..........in the hearts of people...That is my philosophy

Yesterday.....actually it feels like today....nevermind....i am not asleep yet....alright....my shooting improved......i can almost see my starting point.....route to become a shooter.....which means 30 percent accuracy........in order to be shooter...my final target is to shoot in 1 out of every 3 shots.........and that is the standard of a NBA player.........hope can get at least a secondary school player's standard......look at the man at your left.........he is MILLER......not other MILLER......this is the legendary....miller......shooter......was a NBA player.........his finest hour is THE MILLER'S TIME(dont know whether it is phrase like this......he score a few or ten points within last few or 10 seconds.............shooter.....his team-Indiana Pacers was at the height when he was still there.......he just retired last year.....his jersey retires too.....i found my own way of shooting too.......i shoot mainly with 3 fingers from my right hand now...with the support of left hand....and i jump....and my legs spread out like a frog in the air.........ah....everytime i think of my current goals....i will think about the end of life.....looks long but it is actually JUST RIGHT AHEAD.......so choose your paths wisely....make good decisions....That is my philosophy....

I stay till midnight because i just finish the final operation....i pulled out the last remaining nail that cut into the wound......actually....a part of flesh came out too.....there is more blood this time...more difficult...as i took 1 hour....more pain....as my foot is shaking hard....while my left hand grabs stabilize it for a long time....and my right hand is picking out the thing....need lots of endurance, patience, strength...my fingers were numb during the operation....well....although it is already 1st of April...but to me it is still the same day.......i am going to rest soon......alright...sleep well.....i have been down for the past few weeks...especially this months......i hope people can get what they hope for....although it is impossible because it is impossible to satisfy everyone...That is my philosophy